Shadecrown
Solitarian
1. The Awakening
Once again I'm tormented
by these poisonous thoughts,
by a thousand shadows
that lurk in the deep,
in the ocean of mistrust
I just want to disappear
I despise myself right now
but there's nothing I can do
It has taken control
Never wanted this to be this way
I have lost myself again
Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair
Suddenly I recall it all too well
Silenced echoes of a past life
I've lost myself again
Years have come and gone
I have seen too much
Seasons change
Now I remember way too much
Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair
Suddenly I recall it all too well
Silenced echoes of a past life
I've lost myself
Forgotten sorrows, anger and despair
Suddenly I recall it all too well
Silenced echoes of a past life
I've lost myself again
I'm still the one you know
I'm still the one you know
I'm still the one you know
I'm still the one you know
Yes, I am still the one you know
but something wicked lives inside of me
Beyond all light
It slept beneath the frost
Beyond all light
Beyond all light
It slept beneath the frost
Beyond all light
It slept inside of me
Now it's awake
It is awake
It is awake
The monster inside me
2. Dark Heart Replica
Growing up beside you
With affliction
Without affection
You walked beside me
Shadowed my every thought
Shadowed my every thought
Your emotions became mine
Your words became mine
Your hate became mine
Your pitch-black heart became my own
Growing cold beside you
You showed me how
to be just like you
That is what I never wanted
Dark heart replica
Living through the one I hate
The life I never wanted
Growing cold beside you
You showed me how
to be just like you
That is what I never wanted
Dark heart replica
Your emotions became mine
Your words became my own
Your hate became mine
Your pitch-black heart became my own
3. Momentary Trails
Who will remember me
when I drift down the river of time
Alone, forsaken
Who will remember me
When I become a shadow
of my former self,
when life goes on without me
For this life is temporary
Momentary are the trails
we leave behind
No one will remember
my worthless deeds,
my pathetic life
Yes I know I should have
lived my life to the fullest
But at the time I couldn't care less
Now it might be too late
to start over,
to think clearly which path to take
Yet still I crave one more,
one more drink
to ease my misery
Still I crave one more,
Always one more
Who will remember me
when I drown in the river of time
Alone, forsaken
For this life is temporary
Momentary are the trails
we leave behind
No one will remember
my worthless deeds,
my pathetic life
For this life is temporary
Momentary are the trails
we leave behind
No one will remember
my worthless deeds,
my pathetic life
4. Slivers
Manipulate - Break us down - Deceive
Fake your affection
Keep our wounds wide open
You know how
You are the sickness among us
You live just to tear us apart
just to tear us apart
Hate!
Hate!
Hate!
Betray - Let us down
Tear our wounds wide open
Your promise of change
means nothing to us
You are the sickness among us
You live just to tear us apart
The damage is done
We crawled through the slivers
of shattered lives
Through broken wills
Through fragments of hope
The damage is done but we survived
As long as we live we'll go on
But we will never forget,
never forgive
We will never forget
We will never forgive
You are not the one
you pretended to be
Emotions so raw
Sense of compassion
lost in callous heart
The damage is done
We crawled through the slivers
of shattered lives
Through broken wills
Through fragments of hope
The damage is done
but we survived
As long as we live we'll go on
But we will never forget,
never forgive
5. The Loss
Caressing your lifeless skin
Just trying to let go
In the gentle light of dusk
You left this world
You left this world too soon
I will always miss you here
where I am nothing without you
Living in the past
Lying in this lightless void
Writhing in agony
Just trying to survive
another hour,
another day
How can I do this to myself?
I stopped living since I lost you
I am not strong enough
to handle this all alone
I'm giving up on life
We all lose each other
one way or another
But what to do
when it’s all too much?
When everything falls apart
We all lose each other
one way or another
But what to do
when it’s all too much?
How can I do this to myself?
I stopped living since I lost you
I am not strong enough
to handle this all alone
I'm giving up on life
6. Aeon's Still
Yesterday I felt like living forever
but today my world stood still
Why do I have to leave this world so soon
My whole life stood still
Why me, why now
A moment ago I felt like living forever
but today my world collapsed
Why do I have to leave this world so soon
My whole life stood still
Why me, why now
In solitude I ponder
which road should I take
because everything
in my life went so wrong
What the hell should I do
Should I carry on and slowly wither away
What the hell should I do
Should I end this all right now
I'm so afraid
I feel despair, anger and pain
I feel totally lost
What the hell should I do
Should I carry on and slowly wither away
What the hell should I do
Should I end this all right now
Why do I have to leave this world so soon
My whole life stood still
Why me
Why do I have to leave this world so soon
My whole life stood still
Why me, why now
7. Crestfallen
I am the ghost in the ruins
Alone in the well of pain
Crushed in desire's embrace
Heart within winds so cold
The world came crashing down
This all is much more than I can take
I'm in too deep
Achieved nothing worthwhile in life
For my emotions are concealed in shadows
I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive
but it must feel better than this
Lonely heart beneath the frost
Covered in countless scars
I will never be the same
to heal from this is to die
Achieved nothing worthwhile in life
For my emotions are concealed in shadows
I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive
but it must feel better than this
Achieved so little
I was never truly alive
Never achieved my dreams
I'm in too deep
Achieved nothing worthwhile in life
For my emotions are concealed in shadows
I'm not even sure what it means to feel alive
but it must feel better than this
8. Solitarian
Soothing morning light
deprived by the dark of years
In loveless embrace
Lived a dying dream
Disappeared in the deep waters
Walked this road a thousand times
So much time I've thrown away
Once again it's time to bid farewell
From now on I'll walk alone
I will walk alone
I will walk alone
For way too long
I withered in your shadow
As tears washed clean all of my thoughts
I knew I had to leave
Walked this road a thousand times
So much time I've thrown away
Once again it's time to bid farewell
From now on I'll walk alone
I will walk alone
(Pt.2 - Alone)
Burdened by loneliness
Vespertine longing
Tide left me here torn
where despair runs deep
Now I cast no shadow
Suffocate you no more
Learning to live this way
Alone one day at a time
Now I cast no shadow
Learning to live this way
Alone one day at a time
I will walk alone (x2)
I have learned to live
in silence you left behind
I am changing still
but now only for myself
Now I cast no shadow
Suffocate you no more
Learning to live this way
Alone one day at a time
Now I cast no shadow
Learning to live this way
Alone one day at a time
I will walk alone
(Pt.3 - Scarred)
I remember your every disdainful smile
I remember your every made-up reason to hate,
every lie
In the heart of the sea of agonies
With each passing year
I drift further from the shore
Why am I missed now
when I'm too far away?
I remember every futile tear
I remember every hollow word
I remember how you left me,
how you left me with these scars
In the heart of the sea of agonies
With each passing year
I drift further from the shore
Why am I missed now
when I'm too far away?
(Pt.4 - Healing)
Now it's time to forget,
time to wait for the skies to clear
I am on my own
From now on I will walk alone
Sometimes I miss the days
when I had a heart so pure
I got everything
but nothing I could keep
Nothing
(Pt.5 - Closure)
Got back on my feet
but now I'm falling again
Life didn't give me a second chance
Looking back on my life
How blind have I been?
Rushed through the years
Starving in an empty core
Soon I wither away
Soon I wither away
Solitarian I am
Soon I wither away
Solitarian I am
Alone I cease to exist
Solitarian I am
Soon I wither away
Solitarian I am
Alone I cease to exist
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