Madder Mortem Desiderata 1. My Name Is Silence Spelling my name in analogies Pulling your eyelids down Over my silence, over your blind eyes Building myself an anomaly Building with breaking hands Shutting the noise out Driving the nails in I have no name My name is silence I have no pain Who would save you now? Pulling myself through the windowpane Kissing the broken glass Drawing the walls close Stitching my mouth shut Resting my head on the demagogue Leaning on burning sound Tearing my words up Putting my works down I have no use for your bloodless compassion Don't waste your indulgence on me Nodding my head with the grinning ghost, Loving the lucid flow Too many mercies Too many stale hopes Turn my face to avoid your eyes Swearing to let it go Too many failures Too many favours 2. Evasions Speak so softly, I will hear you Though your words are uncincere All your talk amounts to nothing And that nothing's not for me Through a thousand smooth evasions Your voice still rings in my ears If you'd remember who you were I could take hell out of your care I could give you all I am No more syllables to hide us Fate dead within our hands No more shadows and contortions We have run out of lies I could leave you undefended Always hurting, always wrong Leave you wanting and dependent On a hope that'd let you down But still your voice retains the phantom Of all you wanted to be I could give you all I am Say my name No more words to hide us Fate dead within our hands No more shadows and contortions We have run out of lies No more syllables to hide us Say my name 3. Plague On This Land Useless words and scattered earth Wring that neck for what it's worth Curse the flood and hate the sun I will see the damage done Plague holds this land, flooded with milky tears: Life dripping from their eyes Burning their hearts to sleep Pure salvation on your tongue Drink the venom you've become Traitor by necessity Be the dirt that clings to me Plague holds this land, flooded with milky tears: Life dripping from faithless eyes Will the surface sealed Plague on this land! None I loved and none I spared I fulfill what I prepare The remnants of your line Lost the blood that now is mine Plague holds this land, flooded with milky tears: Life dripping from faithless eyes Will the surface sealed I have listened, I have come I have torn you, one by one Be the dirt that clings to me 4. Dystopia All will wither, go to sleep The ones you love you may not keep All you touch will fall apart The dreams you kill will break your heart There's no mercy, there's no rest The void will scream within your chest No one knows and no one will So leave this place that makes you Ill 5. M For Malice Hold the curse close to your chest Now let the game begin Whisper a silence of disease That will never end Just give a changer all control And the pallid king your hand Lay your head gently down on hate That will never bend M for malice M for modesty M for me Where no heaven can be found Only the purpose will remain Let it drown all pain Let it drown all fear All things broken, all things sworn All this the malice will replace Let it drown all fear Let it drown all pain Let no sorrow hold you down Let the weight of good recede It will drown all pain It will drown all fear M for malice M for modesty We repay 6. The Flood To Come Nothing can turn me now Come the terror, come the turmoil Close over breath and bones On the tide will flow Rivers of vibrant life Come the fever to the dead soil Stream with my dormant dreams On the tide will flow Cold is the waiting stone Come the change, I'm sick with hunger Burn me and make me whole On the tide will flow Slow and sure Come the fall, the fall I long for Blind me and bring me home On the tide will flow Seed my world with auguries With agony and joy With fear to hold my spirit down And glory yet to come So will be the day: On the tide will flow Out from our eyes Out from our feeding hands No pain and no penitence No word to hold the flood to come Burn me and make me whole Blind me and bring me home On the tide will flow 7. Changeling Storyteller, bring your stories to my pyre You, the tame man, be what I have learned to loathe Tell me the secrets buried underneath A thousand years of dirt Tell me the fever chills your blood You were the last I'll be the first Fall as you are and for good I am here, there's nothing left to change Life bleeds too soon, counting time down on us Hope withers at my touch Leaving it's ghosts to teach all colours grey Change Storyteller; see the futile smiles and answers I will teach you not to taint my sweet control I have a deeper kind of riddle And a puzzle you won't solve Laugh on your knees Laugh for the changeling and the joke that took us all Change 8. Cold Stone What are the words of the queen on her throne? Spite and splendour, cold under stone This is her promise What is the name of the gift she brings? Sleepless slumber under her wings This is her promise Cold, cold stone Cold stone that buys and baits you Cold stone that hides and hates you Older than pride and pyre Older than flood and fire Here the swiftest beat will stop Here the strongest man will fall In her tower, in her halls In her silent maze of cold stone Cold stone to groom and grind you Cold stone to mae and mind you Cold stone to bleed and blind you Cold stone to break and bind you And her arms won't let you go And her weight will pull you down And her breath is in your lungs And her laugh is that of cold stone What are the words that will always remain? Hunger, sorrow, winter and rain These are her promises 9. Hypnos Sleep, take me now and never let me wake Still in your hands, in your kingdom I'll be yours to break Sleep, I am tired I have blundered on to a path where I don't belong Still in your hand, I'll be safe from where I could go wrong Promise me a silver dream Let your silence flow over me Give me serenity and take away my will Let your silence flow over me Ghosts hold no pain I surrendered years ago Life has no claim on me Let me slip quietly beneath The pulsing noise of everyday Life has no claim on me Sleep if I beg of you, will you bleed all memory from my veins? Cold in your arms, I'll have given all my hurt away I am not afraid I have waited on your doorstep too long Take back my name Close my eyes and turn my face away 10. Sedition Fate, I see your stare Underneath your pale eyes All is here, holding it's breath to have life Smooth, sleek smiles howl at my door To hold me down Or move me on? The pace makes it unclear They smell of lust Of sweetly silky rotting dust Once they'll measure me coldly Twice they'd beg me to try Hope will always betray me It's hand of stone has left the bitter mark on me Hopes, atrocities and daydreams Lay it all on me The cause that I should die for Lay it all on me Fate, I see you stare All is here Fate, I could not care less All is here 11. Desiderata I open my eyes today To leave the world of dreams behind We all know the nothing A hole in our hearts we try to forget Or drown in jest and jokes So I open my eyes today To let myself be torn apart In the rigid chill of my vow All my dreams will die My blood is seeded with hateful ghosts Their cleaving hands upon my faults Pleading my guilt as they pull me down Into the sea of broken hope How could I have known? All my dreams were lies I know All my dreams were lies All my dreams have died Die. 12. Hangman I know that death hides in my eyes And screams from my song I've left the bright lights Left for the river without bridges Slow and silent: In it's waters I can dream of peace I know of no hope Down and into the flood will be my way And to my hangman I will bow My scaffold will follow me down Sing as the soul falls Over the water your voice lingers Just be by my side When the river sweeps my feet away Though I gave you no hope And all you love I repaid with pain I will go down Stay with me My light is all gone Stay with me