Ashes You Leave Desperate Existence A Wish I don't want you to be The brief candle of my darkness Neither do I want you to be The short light of the dawn While coming down on my shoulders I just want you to be My eternal light For the rest of my temporary life Never Again Alone in the Dark Far away from them In a room so deep With my soul in my throat The last few tears I weep I cry to darkest mind As leave in silence fall Alone I will perish Forgotten in this hole Why can't I grow wings To merge with clouds as one Why can't I be as others Unshamed to hail the sun I cannot love this darkness But in darkness I will fall Helpless as a child By dark swallowed whole Feelings forever lost Thoughts so dark and old Blackness grasps my heart In a deadly icy hold Locked alone in a world of mine Being fed by their poisoned lies Despair Unspoken lives of leaves Unspoken lives of men Never again alone in the dark Desperate Existence Echoing the sound of my Inhaling the concrete Anguish takes me is possessing me In my head I can see Making love of gray constructions Of cemental flesh Carnal constellations shine In god's universe of innocence River of my sorrow runs Through this universe of nonsense It's running bringing blood Across my desperate existence I will drown in its waters I will die being infinity When the stars will colour This nocturnal silence When the moonlight will embrace This ancient night My spirit will Wander through eternity Eyes of time will see Deep inside of our misery Et Vidi Solem Evanere Aeva perdita sunt. Momentary Eclipse of Hope I saw you crowned as sun I touched your burning hand And looked at the sky Towards your greedy shine I thought you were a god On the solar throne But you have just burned my eyes I worship your gilded sky Where the clouds in grief are crying Blood and the rain on my hands On my blind eyes Lakes sacrifice their silent waters To glorify your beauty In my mouth taste of blood A taste of godless pain Are you a God, are you human suffering Crucified on our faith? Are you a God, are you human suffering That brings us the pain? In gardens of his promised paradise We are desperately searching for immortality Prisoners of our blindness My mouth is full of blood I am swallowing desperation with Holy forgiveness I can't stand this pain I am crying my eyes on my hands Searching For Artificial Happiness I am burning for you, my life Like a fire without the flames I am smiling to you, my love Like snow to the glowing sun While sunrise sheds its golden blood On fields of our hope Colour of sorrow is our religion We dream of our desired lover - death The wind glorifies rusting leaves Infinite time shines upon our hope We are shadows of our own Light of fire Guide me beyond my conscience Death, take me into your life Shadow Of Somebody's Else Being I want to be free, Free as a whore Attractive as a saint Unique but finally beaten What is my hidden temper Is it just a shadow of somebody's else being? Is my existence just the Same old clocking of imaginary time? Can't somebody understand My flesh as I can't reach my soul?