On Thorns I Lay Egocentric 2003 Life can be What if I described you my only dream? What if I should tell you what is real? Would you be prepared to hear the truth? Could you be brave enough to listen? Walking on filthy roads I got insane. Reveal me one reason for the pain. Now the world is changing I feel alone. My youth died for my aging. When I close my eyes everything is getting better… …My only dream I can dream and I can ride the wave. Violent nightmares stop me when I ‘m awake. I never dreamed of such a dirty fight. Life can be so frightening When I close my eyes everything is getting better… Poster on a wall I can feel her calling me again There is no voice but picture only then I can’t pretend I ‘m just a man Faith. Could I find her? Pain, Must be stronger. Isn’t she for real, drowning in my fear? I can feel her messing with my brain. Should I fuck her while I ‘m still insane? I cannot tell or I don’t care. Faith. Could I find her? Pain. Must be stronger. Isn’t she for real, drowning in my fear? Now. Could I have her? Lying in my bedroom she can be a wave, ride it ‘cause you are brave. Kill me! After all I ‘m done with my practicing on human kind. Kill me and forgive me if I ‘m not that strong but I ‘m alone. You hear me calling as you swim against the tide. Some stars are falling I invite you for a ride. The fall does matters but collision is what counts You fear the latter You could never reach your bounds. Afraid to believe I can’t see a reason to believe and hope sometimes I smile like a fool thinking of you I free my sight and I loose my mind and I feel the truth and I come to say (I ‘m afraid that I can’t believe) Why can’t you look me in the eyes now? I wonder why you have changed. Are you afraid of what you will see? Is it the truth that hurts? I guess I won’t stay. I ‘m leaving today. I ‘m running away. I’ve opened the door I guess it was wrong to give more Nothing is stronger than your secret ways I‘ve spent so many days trying to find you Through my naked voice I speak a dirty noise Hate and love mixed up (I ‘m afraid that I can’t believe) Why can’t you look me in the eyes now? I wonder why you have changed. Are you afraid of what you will see? Is it the truth that hurts? I guess I won’t stay. I ‘m leaving today. I ‘m running away. I’ve opened the door I guess it was wrong to give more I’ve got the pain You’ve got the lie I’ve got to go there is nothing inside I’ve got my loving You’ve got the hate Gotta make out with my life and I’m late Will you be there for me helping me next to me? You will never be. I’ve got the faith You’ve got yourself You’ve got your ego the center of world We cannot start all over again Why don’t you die? I won’t spend more time I in fear will hide Unsung songs. From all I’ve seen and all I’ve known there is one song I sing no more there is a pain from deep inside For many years I felt so strong a single tear I did not share. I was that brave or I pretended? and maybe I was just too young and spent all my thoughts for fun but I had only good intentions. …But I found out… Becoming someone else than me was just the way it had to be as I was searching for addictions. The rope was tripping down my throat and she was never ending hope but even her true love got weaker. …and I cry now… I meet myself again! - Hold on I ‘m making no mistakes this time. See me crying again! - Don’t go I have to be myself this time. Lack in resorts Stay here live up to what we believed in the moments we cried when our love died when you arrived. Stay with me in this time to remember Let us be in this garden forever All my life I’ve waited this moment to come This dust now just fucks up my mind We are your questions. You are our answers. Build up the prison in which we dream of the things we can buy in order to fly to the place where we can hide Stay with me in this time to remember Let us be in this garden forever All my life I’ve waited for this moment to come This dust now just fucks up my mind Stay! we can hide from… Seems we are solid but we are just afraid, crawling. They can’t escape it They smile but they fake it There is nothing to carry them all safe back home Father I need you Where are you? I miss you now that I need your love that makes me feel strong Gallant Nights. Hey, it looks wonderful today it ‘s the perfect day to play “lonely”. Why all the darkness? - Wait for the morning comes… Why all the pain? - Wait here to meet me… They thought always giving me hope They thought I ‘d better try on my own. They thought in their colorful way. They know I’ll be back to give love some day. Hey, it’s high time I got the chance. Find the answer at a glance, finally. Why are we frightened? - We need this to go on Why are we waiting? - Some thinking has to be done When I ‘m gone Save your self when I ‘m gone those wasted moments won’t return. You will see me once again flying but then you are on your own When I ‘m gone. The time, we spend it in this world. I won’t forget it ‘cause life was so long. You will see me once again flying or maybe dying. When I ‘m gone. Rampant of K-ism. All there is now is bars, drugs and parties All we are now ketamized and burned minds Reaching out for friends can bring the light from paradise that can warm up cold-blooded people, the people, I ‘m just yelling to - WE ‘RE GONNA GET NOW SPACED OUT! Psychic days are gone I ‘m asking for some more. I ‘m calling upon people It’s much too late to find the reason in our human minds We‘ve got to search behind forgotten back doors leading to our innocence from lost lives Quotation for listening Help me. Will you? Tell me. Will you? This can be my last searching in the past. Put the blame on my obsessions. I have tried so much tonight the moment seemed so right Help me. Will you? Be my lover. I don’t think you ‘re nice ‘cause I have to pay the price. You are the only one I have got here. My loneliness in your room. My time is up so soon. I ‘d charge you for an hour I ‘d charge you for a night but this, beyond my power, is touching me inside. Some words are there for talking some others cut like knife Your presence everlasting could cost you all your life.