Infestus E x | I s t 1. Akoasma 2. Down Spiral Depersonification Swirling down this usurping vortex Into the deepest realms of all I have lost the path – it is senseless To resist its agonizing call Reaching…Reaching for the beginning Escaping from pain screaming memories Where no remedies ever helped me out I am falling deeper into what truly is The oppressed sides of myself screaming out loud This back breaking pain is deafening my ears A thousand thunders inside of my head I am devoured by this emotional morass These unbearable screams – will I be dead? Words unspoken – like deafening menaces - Reverberating prophecies of destruction Saturating this prosperous darkness which comes over me like a cureless infection Plunged into my life-threatening illness Self devouring suffocating screams Assuming the shape of a continuous flow of darkness The essence of Insanity’s bloodstream NO! NO! Leave me - leave me alone! Escape! Plunged into my life-threatening illness Self devouring suffocating screams 3. Darkness Blazing in the Flame of Fire I know this place I am right now Little comfort it gave me throughout time Something I encountered there deep inside Shining so bright, burning like fire The words it spoke, like blazing flames Burning the last resistance of my withering stronghold Unveiling the doors, into my darkness it came Letting arise my shadows by calling their names Shadows reveal: I am your disgrace, torturing your soul Keeping you away from everyone And I am what you feel while willing to end their lives Leaving you alone with all your rage We are everything that you try to escape Ruining your life and all that is left We are - the darkness, blazing in the flame of fire Fire – makes me see my unhopeful fight Fire – shadows haunt through my mind’s night Fire – taking away my breath Fire – embrace me in the name of death Fire – gently kissing my scarred skin Fire – unveiling all of my sins Fire – taking away my breath Fire – Darkness – Death We are - the darkness, blazing in the flame of fire Shadows: We are your innermost pain, the bale, the torment, all in your name Eating you alive from within We are every pulsating heart-beat pounding inside of your head, which reminds you of still being here We are everything that you try to escape Ruining your life and all that is left Oh I am damned forever, Not able to leave them behind Oh I am damned forever I and delusion eternally combined 4. Torn Observer A glance to starve in eternity The schizophrenic act of being I feel the other side is restless Torn – Observer – The guilt I dreamed of breathing out my life forever into the endless blackened night sky... 5. Mirror Mind Reality Hold still! We mean you no harm! We will take what is rightfully ours! Behold us! The manifold contagious swarm! We will assume control of all your powers! The black foe that infiltrates my innermost Swarm-like infesting even the smallest of my hideouts Forced to inhale this poisonous mixture of my darkest parasites Violently spreading – like storm clouds they carry destruction within Mirror Mind Reality! Scoffingly they reflect my desperate faces As they manifest before my death-drunken eyes Distorted impressions that drive into madness Myself, the tempter, in blackened disguise We will force you down! Mirror Mind Reality – there is no cure! Subject to this life force obscure Losing myself in countless faces Mirror Mind Reality – there is no fucking cure Hearing Insanity’s call from my darkest place(s) Is this the end of all I that I know, Surrounded, extradited, drowning in woe, All these shadows that are a part of me Rip apart my mind as they emerge out of this demonic sea Slave to the darkness in me Mirror Mind Reality – there is no fucking cure Hearing Insanity’s call from my darkest place 6. Der Blick hinaus Ein ängstlicher Blick hinaus in die mich zerfressende Wahrheit Aus dem Fenster meiner eigenen Verdammnis Fremdgesteuerte Bewegungen im Angesicht des Wahnsinns Der Verlust – die Tragik – das gestrandete Ich Eingesperrt...Undurchdringbar.... Wie kann es sein, dass ich hier stehe? Sklave von Krankheit, Opfer meiner zerrissenen Seele Ein passiver Beobachter und doch im Bann der fremden Gewalt Der Willkür ausgeliefert, gezwungen ein Zeuge von abscheulich‘ Zerfall Das Fenster ins Leben, Gitter geschmiedet aus grenzenloser Tobsucht Sie zähmen mein Schieben gegen diese ruchlos‘ schwarze Dämonenzucht ....verdammte Dämonenzucht Sie jagen, sie töten, sie morden, sie lassen nichts zurück Der Wahnsinn, das Toben, die Horden, zerreißen den Verstand Stück für Stück Sie zerren, sie stechen, sie drohen, sie schreien wie verrückt Der Wahnsinn und das verdammte das Toben, zerreißen den Verstand Stück für Stück So verkümmere ich hinter lebendigen Mauerwerken Hineingezwungen in die Rolle des Nichts Der Protagonist - Teufel, die im Dunkel lauern, die seelenlos das Sein zerstören, bis du für immer vergehst! Der Blick hinaus... Ich wende ihn ab – den Blick, der meine Schande offenbart Geschändetes Wesen, geistig entstellte Abart Der Blick, der tief in mich sieht und doch im Nichts vergeht Im zerfurchten Angesicht meines Lebens kein Wort von Erlösung steht! 7. Descend Direction Void Finally controlling every piece of mind and flesh They drive me into utter nothingness Into the dungeons they used to call their home which now will be my final doom Soulless hunters - origin unknown Entities of the alter side I frown upon your new throne I run and run, I cannot hide The deeper I go, the less I care for this life ...the less i care Their poisonous breath like death in my neck I haste down their stairs that glow in shining-black Fleeing from what was always a part of me Leaving this life behind, forced to make way for the breed The eye of the vortex keeps crushing down on me Into apathy I descend, I will not succeed I rather die than to feel this pain All my efforts – everything in vain My emotions turn to grey I will forever fade away ...fade away Further and further down it goes I feel them pushing I lost control of everything Driven into the void…