Antestor Martyrium 1. Spiritual Disease Living just playing the game Lust for power lies within Killing is no longer a sin Striving for a mental illness And slowly leaving reality Lost without control Left within you soul Subconsciousness no turning back Absorbed by their own needs They cannot see where it leads Left in an inner world of fantasy Ending their lives as a human wreck Playing just losing the game Destroyed themselves with hate Their souls will not be saved Endless pain tormented forever God's rage awaits for them to see Lost without control Left within you soul 2. Materalisic Lie Satisfaction death reaction Lifeless being life deceiving Materialistic lie existing till you die The world cannot give nor let you live Lustful bodies skinned to the core still crying out for so much more Needing eyes filled with desire made to be just another liar Turn away it's hell to pay Not a very nice place to stay When you die the needing eyes cry there's nothing left to consume All that you've worked for falls through the dust there's only hell left to pay for your lust Materialistic lie existing till you die The world cannot give nor let you live 3. Depressed Fighting seems so in vain Weakened by my own brain Mindless torture blackening my thoughts I'm flying away to my deepest decay I'm falling through the black hole I've lost my tears now I'm cold Deeper deeper deeper I'll fall I have no strength hear my call My soul is screaming let me free Take away this pain I see Descending feelings where are you leading me Desires of death rules in my darkness In the shadows I'll die all alone Blinding sorrow there's no tomorrow There's no place my soul can hide Slain by the thoughts that lied Fighting seems so in vain Weakened by my own brain See the reason to exist Jesus help me trough this miss 4. Thoughts Living inside restless and wild Using your mind just like you're blind Imagination hallucination Distortion of the soul Leaving you out cold Nowhere to run there's no more fun See no solution to your confusion Don't stay too long You'll never know what's wrong Open up wide let God inside 5. Under The Sun I started to think of what I've done with my hands Worked hard and suffered for nothing but emptiness Want to cry to die under the sun that's why Wisdom and foolishness nothing but emptiness Wisdom is better than folly The wise have got eyes in their head while fools walk about in the dark But they meet the same destiny Want to cry to die Can you tell me why? Then I said in my silent mind I've the same fate as the fool Want to cry to die Can you tell me why? Want to cry to die Is it all a lie? How can all my wisdom serve me? The wise must die like a fool All Man's days full of pain all he does brings him grief No comfort just oppressed nothing but emptiness All his tears all his fears under the sun it breeds Hopelessness wickedness nothing but emptiness God has granted Man abundance a gift of God power to enjoy He won't dwell upon the passing years because God satisfies 6. Inmost Fear Never to feel nothing too real The place of doom this empty room Look inside the brain The unconscious chain All the time awaiting Creatures my soul are taking Who can break these chains Only death remains The inmost fear it's all so near The evil within stored by sin The dark side forsaken Ready to be awakened In my darkest hour I can feel the power Running through my vein Driving me insane Where am I to go Still inside my soul Reaching out from within Who can forgive my sin If I could reach the door All this pain no more No more... 7. Searching I'm searching for you I'm searching for me For some answers to see For something to come for something to go That's all I want to know God creates God destroys Jesus dies so you could live Drink the blood of Christ The Son of Man was sacrificed I'm searching for good I'm searching for bad Where is the faith I had For someone to listen for someone to care I don't want to be a mayor I'm searching for love I'm searching for hate Can it be too late? For something true for something false There's someone who calls God creates God destroys Jesus dies so you could live Drink the blood of Christ The Son of Man was sacrificed 8. Martyrium 9. Mercy Lord Be gracious to me o God In Thy true love In the fullness of Thy mercy Blot out my misdeeds Create in me a pure heart o God Give me a new and steadfast spirit Do not drive me from Thy presence Or take Thy Holy Spirit from me Against Thee I have sinned And done what displeases Thee Thou hast hidden the truth in darkness Through this mystery Thou teach me Create in me a pure heart o God Give me a new and steadfast spirit Do not drive me from Thy presence Or take Thy Holy Spirit from me