Golgotha Melancholy 1. Lonely To express what I feel To tell what I need Not to fear anymore And then walking without chains All these nights dreaming awake Creating my own cosmos Being the God of my own jail Creating my own people Making a perfect world in own self Where everybody obeys me Building friendly and fragile cities Where everybody is afraid of me My whises becomes reality not even thinking about it People exists here People exists here My pleasures carry out 'cause I order it People is dead People is dead People is dead To express what I feel To tell what I need Not to fear anymore And then walking without chains I mix myself among them like another one I speak without any effort I'm listened and I listen I talk about what I feel and I listen to their feelings Both feelings fusionate being mutual I feel myself relaxed, in harmony and unworried [yeah] But everything goes down cities melt People break down, planets creak like dry ground because Everything are puppets of madness that try to lie me And I'm the stupid puppeteer that moves the threads of my intelligence *I need to leave living between puppets, I want the real world I need to feel living people not been programmed Not to be pushed by their terrific look To deeply breathe with nobody stealing the air But everything's absurd nothing's better outside Than into my autistic refuge Reality is as mad as my madness is And the only solution is to enter again Into my universe and dominate everything To forget the outside And become the almighty of the absurd [yeah!] Enter again into my universe and dominate everything To forget the outside And become the almighty of the absurd [yeah!] Of the absurd Of the absurd Of the absurd Of the absurd Of the absurd [yeah!] 2. Lake of Memories Like it was wrote You appear in a place And not knowing why Your dreams comes true Fighting too much to get it [yeah] So many walls to jump So many questions to answer So many problems without solution So many pain without pardon And you understand how difficult is That your eternal dream comes true And you understand how difficult is That your eternal dream comes true I'm caught in a magic spell In spite of the long distance between us Day after day Night after night My head is going on circles That makes impossible to me to forget Although I am Who denies his help The image of the dark ceiling Makes me think in everything I've lived Makes me think in everything I've had And now I haven't got And I feel a current through my dorsal spine That shakes all my being Like a void eating my soul Later I breath, keeping the air, Keeping the tears, keeping the screams I unleash it all! And a descomunal rage invades my eyes Flooding them with a lake of memories Happens what happens, they'll always be mine And will be in my dreams Which I'll never forget and help me to keep waiting ...to keep waiting [yeeeah] 3. Nothing Being at the place of darkness Where everything that exists, never is Being in the place of inexistence Where silence is everything Where silence never stops Being in a place I ignore Where sadness dominates monotony And I feel the impediment of taking out The anguish that resounds in my inside And I feel all his foundless madness Which oppress me like a thousand gravities And I feel more presence That gets lost in the infinity [infinity] I feel his torture in my being I feel his screams in my mind I feel his breath in my soul I feel his look in my spirit I try to cry and I have no eyes I try to hear and I have no ears I try to smell and I have no nose I try to touch and I have no hands I try to burst, and I have no body I try to burst, and I have no body I feel his torture in my being I feel his screams in my mind I feel his breath in my soul I feel his look in my spirit What's the sense of this demented Function which trapes me? What's the order of this puzzle If none of us fits okay? What's the motive of this whole emptiness If we don't exist in any concrete point? What's the answer to everything If I can't even make Make a question? [a question?] [a question] All these pleasures, refused All these sacrifices, in vain All these prays, with no destiny All these penances, absurd All these abstinences To get a beyond From the plenty grace And above all these Fears to an inexistent God For this Chaos [this Chaos] [this Chaos] All these pleasures, refused All these sacrifices, in vain All these prays, with no destiny All these penances, absurd All these abstinences To get a beyond From the plenty grace And above all these Fears to an inexistent God For this Chaos [yeah] Is this perpetual night, perhaps my personal hell?? Maybe this perpetual night, bring a clear sunrise Which let me see the sky, that I think I deserve But until that moment I can only wait and reflect About everything and nothing And try to remember the mistakes That confined me to utter obscurity 4. Raceflections A race that hates who have [yeah] More power or are different [woah] We destroy what we cannot [woah] Control with our index finger We think we are powerful When just a simple feeling Can change our harmony Destroying our defenses And we're so blind That we fall again I stand in front of the mirror and look at my race A race that talks about peace stealing food from the starved I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself Stealing food from the starved to make weapons to defend them We cultive our bodies And wish to never get old We make masquerades of lies made up with the pain Of inferior races While our brain atrophies In his cranial cell I stand in front of the mirror and look at my race A race that wishes to possess the secrets of eternal life I stand in front of the mirror and look at myself And think it's God procreating life in test tubes while praying to creator *Why have I born human? My supremacy is my disgrace Why have I born human? Always trying to go ahead of our time Why have I born human? Yearing to dominate the universe Not knowing nothing about ourselves Why have I born human? Rational material Born in image and resemblance Of an unknown God Unknown God [yeah] Is this humanity purpose To end as inorganic Matter to feed the planet which we destroy Because we think it's ours? 5. Lost instrumental 6. Immaterial Deceptions Always that you find somebody In a critical moment of your life Always that you need a friend And he's the first who comes to help you Always that you feel content And he's with you to celebrate it Always that they abandon you And he's with you to give confidence in yourself Always that all is falling over you and Covers you with a hope's big top [big top] Always that you believe you've got everything That you desired to be happy Think that sooner or later Though you don't believe it this will be over Think that when you esteem someone Harder will be to leave him Think that feeling's refuges Are the weakest ones Think that the columns where they lean Are like sand with the greed Later he's not with you And you're alone again With no one to hear And understand you Your soul will turn in black And inside of you That emptiness will grow on you And will make you to feel powerful And impassive more and more More and more and more and more [more and more] So never leave anyone Who wants to open The doors of your confidence Not even when you think it Will never happen again Never trust anybody Never trust anybody else Just in yourself [yourself] 7. Stillness Big earth's extensions Covered by what once Were free man And now they're only dust The mud still keeps some bone As a relic of their lifes [lifes lifes lifes] A living shadow dwells keeping cool the memories smell Only shadow, the void that it feels fill it His lacking eyes of view and colour don't cry anymore Sky does for them His teared voice by the anguish screams Is still heard in the distance Maybe confused with the brutal languaje Of the hurricane rage How many times it confronted Against devastation and it won? [won...] Days pass by surrounded by fierceness and cruelty Of sadness and regret the hate and the pain walk along With him, protecting him, agressing him, strenghting the fear To continue in the grave of existence Interiority's hades, reason of death is what he needs to keep resisting To keep tolerating the arbitrariness of daily's suffering To live in death To die in life To freeze the blood to burn the rancour that draw his veins To burn the body and freeze the mind where inmortality's remembrance will remain [will remain] To live in death To die in life To freeze the blood to burn the rancour that draw his veins To burn the body and freeze the mind where inmortality's remembrance will remain [will remain] A living shadow dwells keeping cool the memories smell Only shadow, the void that it feels fill it His lacking eyes of view and colour don't cry anymore Sky does for them His teared voice by the anguish screams Is still heard in the distance Maybe confused with the brutal languaje Of the hurricane rage How many times it confronted Against devastation and it won? 8. Virtualis Demens Cast into somewhere or anywhere Another way to spend bit more of my life Dreams turn reality or is this reality?? Black and white squares fills all dimensions Or maybe it's just a dream There's no way to wake up Just a stain in this monochromatic space Where the only difference it's me My own silouette is the way between None or one, truth or lie, black or... There is no night nor day Where's up or down, left or right?? How many time have I been here How long will I be?? My own silouette is the way between None or one, truth or lie, black or... white *Someone by my side which I can only feel Some kind of voice inside of me Altering all my environment But I'm my own environment Someday I'll make the black queen to explain me Why this tower's movement, for a true king [king king] Is this reality or it's just a dream? Or is it infinity?? I'm near to get one of these Foretold madness attack If I can change my environment, I can scape I can scape Is there any reason to live all of this?? My own silouette is the way between Live or death, love or hate, beginning or end I can't feel the wind, there's no heat or cold, fire or ice How did I arrive here?? Can I ask myself why a life, why a love, why an end?? Dwelling in the deepnedd of a three-d chess Am I the winner or loser?? I can't put myself in check mate!! [mate mate!!] 9. Caves of Mind instrumental