In Mourning Monolith 1. For You To Know The pen scratches vellum paper and the words flow Ink stained fingers dreaming up this letter to you Your love lingers in the shades of a grey morning Sentence escapes in the mist The pictures of home swallowed by a narrow margin Delusions creeping upon me, I'm shaded The subtlety of time makes everything clearer Clawing to my chains, squirming with my agony Scared of never seeing you again But I never knew you anyway It could have been so different It just never happened that way Have I told you about the magpie, my only friend Have you heard about the tears and the nights in the rain And I want you to know, I want you by my side I could have helped you find a way back into this world If I ever face this world, we'll be together This is for you to know. This is for you to feel. The subtlety of time makes everything clearer Clawing to my chains, squirming with my agony Scared of never seeing you again But I never knew you anyway It could have been so different It just never happened that way The sun is setting, leaving me no sanctuary And I can't stand another night like this Tomorrow I will follow my friend among the trees My final letter, I will write it down for you Keep it with your poems because they were all true Just so you know, you didn't get here in time Have I told you about the magpie, my only friend Have you heard about the tears and the nights in the rain And I want you to know, I want you by my side I could have helped you find a way back into this world If I ever face this world, we'll be together This is for you to know. This is for you to feel. 2. Debris Darkness sets outside, a shadow dances frightened on the bedroom wall It's quiet outside, soon the time is right Carefully out of bed, slips into a skintight silky dress Red lips kiss in the mirror, harbouring the sadness in her eyes One sip from the bottle hidden behind the books in the shelf Pushing down the handle, the door slides open wide Cautiously moving down the hallway, don't make any sound Finally out in the night, the air is warm and clear A slight breath sweeps through the treetops in a moonlight serenade No look back, no chance to turn away this time She lights a cigarette and walks away from home Rushing through the emptiness of a sleeping town A few dreamless strolling in the dancing streetlights Butterflies swarming the inside with shivers divine Almost there, she stops to catch her breath She straightens the dress one hand through the hair Her eyes detecting their under bridge rendezvous Minutes pass by, she's alone He is nowhere in sight, loneliness lingering back Hours goes by and love once more lost In this corner of the world cold and empty On one of the loneliest nights he came from out of a dream Embraced and in a moment all pain went away A dreamtime tied to a faded reality and for a while it all just seemed to flow Rushing through the emptiness of a sleeping town A few dreamless strolling in the dancing streetlights Butterflies swarming the inside with shivers divine Almost there, she stops to catch her breath She straightens the dress one hand through the hair Her eyes detecting their under bridge rendezvous 3. The Poet And The Painter Of Souls The creatures in his empty eyes are watching the moon Cuts on faded fingers that are following every thought Creating wallpaper flowers with bloodstained hands Writing down the feelings, asking all about the questions Pleading answers, screaming, scared for what they will tell Turn the lights out and hide away, all the eyes are on you Dreaming your nightmares as they are begging you to fall Staring with the eyes closed And the view from there is frightening No don't try to figure it out This is not a suit that fits your fake Lay a razor in the hands of a broken heart Don't tell the tales that tells it all The walls are closing in, creeping closer and closer Shadows are raping another one in the hall Teardrops are falling from the eye of a fractured mind Alone beside the candles, that burned down so long ago Everything is words in a poets mind And the teller of his tales, are deaf and blind Scratching the stains of this tragedy Carving another poem from his insanity No don't try to figure it out This is not a suit that fits your fake Lay a razor in the hands of a broken heart Don't tell the tales that tells it all The walls are closing in, creeping closer and closer Shadows are raping another one in the hall Teardrops are falling from the eye of a fractured mind Alone beside the candles, that burned down so long ago 4. The Smoke In the alley at night time, when the mist covers the ground The restless on their promenades are staring at your misery The smile of the beggar, as you try to hide from his greasy eyes The nights are long when you are scared and alone So you take one more deep breath to numb the pain Why should you care when you are lost out in the rain The girl in the mirror is bleeding, you have to live with her scars The smoke is in your eyes, it hides the obvious for a while So you take one more deep breath to numb the pain Why should you care when you are lost out in the rain So you do it once again to ease your sorrow Why should you bother, the pain will not be gone tomorrow When you are lost in your own escape You wish upon another star and the tears starts falling So you do it once again to ease your sorrow Why do you bother, the pain will not be gone tomorrow So comes another dawn with no hope in sight It is much clearer now in the light You stumble and fall back to the ground One last breath in before you go back home This is not a new day This day it will be the same way So you take one more deep breath to numb the pain Why should you care when you are lost out in the rain So you do it once again to ease your sorrow Why should you bother, the pain will not be gone tomorrow So comes another dawn with no hope in sight It is much clearer now in the light You stumble and fall back to the ground One last breath in before you go back home This is not a new day This day it will be the same way 5. A Shade Of Plague Red eyes from tears and all the sleepless nights Touched skin can never be washed clean again You are burned by the fire of his flame Trapped in the filth and all the fucking shame Pushed down by disgust and desire Numbing the wounds with other wounds Here I am, you cannot see me But look me in the eyes when you cry I don't mind if you hide yourself, I will find Don't you make me angry this time You will never disappoint me again Bite the pillow and make no sound So Julia, darkness falls again You leave the light on by the window Praying to the moon and the stars That tonight you'll be left alone Forced into darkness by the fear of failing Held down into loneliness So beautiful but filled up with the tears and pain In constant hiding from his hungry eyes What is the price of lust, love and lies No one will find you hiding in your shadow land Wipe away all the tears from your eyes, can't you see Pull the sheets above your heads, try to fall asleep But scared to wake up by the sound of not being But scared to wake up by the sound Of not being on your own, all alone Forced into darkness by the fear of failing Held down into loneliness So beautiful but filled up with the tears and pain In constant hiding from his hungry eyes What is the price of lust, love and lies No one will find you hiding in your shadow land 6. With You Came Silence Two lovers, we met with the poetry in France We painted our life on broken glass Lost in the moment it felt right this time Beyond the embers of life glowing all around us It was always there waiting to take me away Dark and unwelcoming Out of the blindness my hands freaked again, it's getting harder Tongue tied and strung out we learned how to pray Into shapes, safe in my permanent gaze I can't really speak to you anymore Her presence melts away the past Drifting apart like leaves on a stormy sea Why didn't I get the chance to try There came the end of all beauty in life She was meant to be our shelter from the madness I thought she would make a difference But Julia, she made it even worse I thought she would make a difference She made it even worse I never saw the end until it came like the coldest wind It cracked the sky open and I was left out in isolation Out of the blindness my hands freaked again, it's getting harder Tongue tied and strung out we learned how to pray Into shapes, safe in my permanent gaze I can't really speak to you anymore Her presence melts away the past Drifting apart like leaves on a stormy sea Why didn't I get the chance to try I was the dark star on our glimmering sky The failing father I'd never become 7. Pale Eye Revelation Outside the walls years ago, long before the loss It rained that day when I first laid my eyes upon hatred Just by the look in his eyes I saw the prophecy I knew that he knew that we all could see But I was the lunatic in the eyes of the world No one listened to the weak mans poetry Through the window I gaze and I meet the eyes of my queen A glimpse of beauty to feed my broken heart I faded to the ground like so many times before The way that he looked at her told me everything But I'm just a weird old man, what could I have done So I retreated into my own insanity Cold shivers from the sight of his eyes This was the night when it all went down the line Cold sweat from the cruel thoughts of you and him I lost my breath and it all went down the line Darkness swept in and held me to the fucking ground I am so sorry that I was weak and let you down on this day of betrayal Daddy's little girl in the hands of a beast of man I had a feeling that something was wrong so long before I never meant to do you wrong I never meant for hope to be gone I faded to the ground like so many times before The way that he looked at her told me everything But I'm just a weird old man, what could I have done So I retreated into my own insanity Cold shivers from the sight of his eyes This was the night when it all went down the line Cold sweat from the cruel thoughts of you and him I lost my breath and it all went down the line Darkness swept in and held me to the fucking ground I am so sorry that I was weak and let you down on this day of betrayal 8. The Final Solution (Entering The Black Lodge) In the outskirts of a real world, there was once a dream Camouflaged by daylight, creating it's own mirage Misdirected lover killed the mannequin Did a shadow land hide the secrets for us all On the other side of society, the promised morning never came In the outskirts of the real world, dream got lost It was the end of another life but just another day in this world One more light faded away into the night One more step back for the forgotten once The cry of thousand rivers will not bring life back Poor Julia she was not strong enough to stay Crawling into the shadows to get some ease Blind eyes surrounded No one saw a single thing Where were you, poet Where were the ones who should have loved Deaf ears surrounded Nobody heard a single sound Where were you, mother Where were you all that knew the truth Betrayal was all around her No one seemed to be aware Where were you, lover Where were the ones who should have deeply cared Pain and fear surrounded So alone and always scared Where were you, father Where were you all that could have made it end The October sky cried for her No more keeper of the inside In the water she felt no pain Was the trail to the black lodge irrelevant Blind eyes surrounded No one saw a single thing Where were you, poet Where were the ones who should have loved Deaf ears surrounded Nobody heard a single sound Where were you, mother Where were you all that knew the truth No more keeper of the inside In the water she felt no pain Was the trail to the lodge irrelevant Sinking deeper, deeper down closer to the end This was the final solution No one wanted to know how far she had gone The magpie came and brought the silence Entering the black lodge, she lost the fight The pain that once were hidden will now spread into light Blind eyes surrounded No one saw a single thing Where were you, poet Where were the ones who should have loved Deaf ears surrounded Nobody heard a single sound Where were you, mother Where were you all that knew the truth