My Shameful ...Of Dust 1. ...Of Dust 2. And Waters Will Close 3. Your Darkness Shine 4. One Lost 5. I Found Nothing Sacred 6. These Empty Rooms 7. Disappointment 8. To Never Return 1. ...Of Dust Everything has become so meaningless to me Grayness fills my days Emptiness, all I have left So very futile, it all is The fight is gone from me Darkness ate away me Absorbed into itself So pointless, is all our struggle Why Wouldn't I just lay down and give up Just to lie down, and wait For the pain to end With emptiness I fill my days I'm waiting, for so long I'll wait What is there left to be saved now What is worth being saved? Night comes down on me Cover myself in the dark Feel no more pain Night comes down on me What will I leave behind Dust and emptiness Who will keep my wake Who will keep my memory Who will keep my wake 2. And Waters Will Close Slowly smothered, cloaked by darkness Drowned forever, under ice and water So heavy, my feet arenow Burdened by my own sins Held to this place for too long By coward hands betrayed, by myself Pulled down, down under Darkness beckons, it pleads for my return Waves cover me, the sea fills me Slowly, but for certain, I am free Thrown back from this place Traveled afar to find my exit Slowly but surely, I close on my fate Slowly but surely, waters will close on me Slowly, but so surely, I am going home 3. Your Darkness Shine All hope I have left behind me With peacefull mind I face tomorrow No use to fight anymore against my fate Blinded have I been by false hope There is no tomorrow Yesterday, I left it all fall My memories I burned, I burned them all I sweep my hand through the ashes That once were my life, still warm Beyond all hope I've gone So much pain I carried inside me For vanity I suffered, made a marthyr of myself I saw delight in my own demise My pain was greater than yours Still as I've reached this point I see no reason to hold on I have come beyond any reason to live Moving on to the realm of dream For your sake I still hold on I will wait till I can't do no harm Heed my words, we will all be gone All the hope has fled from us And the earth beckons for me... Let your darkness shine on me Shower me with your own tears Let me fall, let me fall down Don't wait, don't you wait for me 4. One Lost Final twilight Twilight of the gods Darkness falls on us It shines this last days light Waters turn to ash Rivers flood with the earth A sudden flash Of hidden knowledge One lost forever Taken from us Hope has been banished Sold for shining dust Secrets been buried Inside the dreamers mind Has it ever been said so That the earth will swallow us all Smother with ashen embrace Fill our lungs with herself So, it has come to this Night falls, for ever it falls Cloaked in this darkness In mother's embrace Smothered in here In the last darkness And she shines on us The dead light 5. I Found Nothing Sacred I know who I am That I have not yet lost I treasure myself It is all I have left Unspoken truth now screams Far beyond myself I travel to seek my soul Broken, but still Breath runs, though so shallow This blood that runs through my veins So foreign, rejected from me I've lost all I had left I lost my name Forever gone from me, my sanity I found nothing sacred All beauty has withered But ashes remain now here In the dark where I cry for help Broken are all promises Life has no more truth No god will save me now This all has lost the meaning to me Lost but I have found Soil that will keep me down Rest but for eternity Close my eyes and let me dream 6. These Empty Rooms These empty rooms I keep inside me Here I hide from the world, afraid to live My life, I let go Let someone else enjoy the sunlight I dare not, to expose myself Only dust moves here Where I hide from my life A life I never wanted So let me be, leave me be Leave me be, I want no one To comfort me, leave me be Sunlight, it has no place here In these empty rooms inside me Take away your hand Waste no pity on me This is what I wanted Now leave me here, in my solitude I want nothing 7. Disappointment A lifetime prison, this body is All this time, without hope I've gone through A disappointment to myself, And to all around me Waste of good life... Abomination Still, after all these days I try to go on like everyone else Just for one more day I've grown so tired of all this All these lies eat away my soul All this time I've lied to myself This show I have to keep To keep myself sane All this time I've lied to myself 8. To Never Return So in vain, all of my attempts to better myself This broken soul, it will never truly heal All this darkness, it cannot be washed away So I am broken, all my hopes laid waste So deep am I, in my own hell I created this, for myself To sink in deeper, so deep I am At the end, what will all this count for Just a series of failures, in a life gone wrong Will you say, what good have I done In all these years I wasted in the dark Waste not your pity on me The emptiness inside you will see There is nothing here to be saved All your tears for me are for waste All that I've done, still lingers on me All of my broken promises I find now ahead of me... I'll never come back!