Pantheist The Pains of Sleep 1. The Pains Of Sleep Ere on my bed my limbs I lay It hath not been my use to pray With moving lips or bended knees But silently, by slow degrees My spirit I to Love compose In humble trust mine eye-lids close With reverential resignation No wish conceived, no thought expressed Only a sense of supplication A sense o'er all my soul impressed That I am weak, yet not unblessed Since in me, round me, every where Eternal Strength and Wisdom are But yester-night I prayed aloud In anguish and in agony Up-starting from the fiendish crowd Of shapes and thoughts that tortured me Sense of intolerable wrong And whom I scorned, those only strong Thirst of revenge, the powerless will Still baffled, and yet burning still Desire with loathing strangely mixed On wild or hateful objects fixed Fantastic passions ! maddening brawl And shame and terror over all Deeds to be hid which were not hid Which all confused I could not know Whether I suffered, or I did For all seemed guilt, remorse or woe My own or others still the same Life-stifling fear, soul-stifling shame So two nights passed, the night's dismay Saddened and stunned the coming day Sleep, the wide blessing, seemed to me Distemper's worst calamity The third night, when my own loud scream Had waked me from the fiendish dream O'ercome with sufferings strange and wild I wept as I had been a child And having thus by tears subdued My anguish to a milder mood Such punishments, I said, were due To natures deepliest stained with sin For aye entempesting anew The unfathomable hell within The horror of their deeds to view To know and loathe, yet wish and do Such griefs with such men well agree But wherefore, wherefore fall on me To be beloved is all I need And whom I love, I love indeed 2. Pavor Nocturnus 3. For Funerals To Come [Katatonia cover] Through the bleak window of my soul In marble halls of falling snow Winter touch the Earth undone Embittered we embrace the funerals to come 4. Intro (1000 Years) 5. Time It's time to move on Time to leave my shelter And step into this world I had turned my back to Time to find some joy Time to share some happiness My God, I forgot how to love and hate Is this the world? Is this my new shelter? How could I base my hope on this? Where can I find Some light into this darkness How can I build the fortress of truth On a foundation of lies? It's time to say goodbye Time to move back into the shelter I created for my own good Time to cover my eyes Not to see the faces That betray their cold indifference But I shall return to burn their houses down -the houses built on lies and apathy- To claim back my place I have never found To break the silence With a cry of desperation 6. Lust How I long for the tender flesh Of the Virgin For the subdued look in her eyes When she starts to suspect that I'm the angel Who is going to embrace her I'm Jesus' father And therefore God Ignored by history But not by fate 7. Envy Us We, the dead, can not understand Why these mortals don't envy us In silence and peace we rest, but we don't exist We have so many things in common Why are they afraid of us? We can't understand Our lives are over, theirs have no meaning What have they got that we don't have? Beautiful is our realm Our kingdom no one can resist In solitude's eternal bliss Together we shall not exist 8. Liefde Voor Niemand Nooit meer mijn hart zul je ineenkrimpen, in twee breken want het gevoel dat jou zo deed lijden, was de liefde voor niemand Onpersoonlijke liefde, gericht op een glimlach, een speels blik, een gouden haarlok, de aanraking van een zacht lichaam zo zacht, sidderend zacht dat slechts de herinnering overblijft lijkt mij te beurt te zijn gevallen Als een magneet lijkt deze liefde zonder gezicht Alle momenten van eenheid en geluk naar zich toe te hebben getrokken Egodstische liefde was het, en alles wat ook maar een beetje echt was Werd als gebroken kristal over de grond gestrooid Liefde voor iedereen was het, dacht ik Liefde voor jou, voor hen, voor alleman Maar de folterende pijn die me steeds overtuigde om voor allen te lijden Was eigenlijk een waarschuwing: diep in mezelf wist ik, denk ik Dat de liefde voor allen de liefde voor niemand is... 9. 1000 Years 1000 years of solitude 1000 years of pain hardened my heart fed my poor soul with misery I can't even tell am I dead, am I alive? Don't hesitate, penetrate me with your sting I don't know how to cry I won't even bleed Don't even worry if I might die At least then I'll know that I was alive 1000 years of isolation the closer to you, the lonelier I get I could vanish in your presence You wouldn't even notice Maybe I already did, how should I know ? Current line-up: Kostas Panagiotou [Vocals, Keyboards] Andy Semmens [Vocals] Mark Bodossian [Vocals] Ilia Rodriguez [Guitars, Vocals] Pete Benjamin [Guitars] Sterghios [Drums]