The Provenance Red Flags 1. At The Barricades So, it's a fact now, what should have been the bloody years of my life, down the drain So, I'm on the bed, I hate my heart for pumping Things will never be the same Wish I was dead and no one cared Wish I was dead and that I dared Left to fight despair Truthfully I really should have been aware I clench my fists So, I bite down hard, I won't go out like this Yes, you'll find me there... at the barricades See you at the barricades; meet you there, at the barricades So, I'm at the front I hate my heart for pumping Things will always be the same It always ends like this, always had and always will You're all the same Wish I was dead and no one cared Wish I was dead and that I dared Wish you were dead and no one cared Wish you were dead and that I dared See you at the barricades; meet you there, at the barricades 2. Crash Course Racing rain-drenched roads of dimness, the incessant light-pulse Invades your privacy, heading nowhere special An indecisive gaze at nothing as your mind's drawn blank and outside features start to fade Sad to see you end this way, chasing your self-hatred Streetlights flashing by in thousands, the city traffic's round the bend Seems your number has come up, it's closing stages now Look, here comes the end As the pulses intensity, a shimmer on the pallor of your face You see the crash and press down hard, somehow to ease the impact You know you should have hit the brakes, what a fucking waste The way the world just smashed right into your face So many things you should have done, the spans you could have run I'm sad to see you end this way Sad to see you end this way, facing your self-hatred 3. Thanks To You I feel tired of all my expectations constantly getting ruined by her Of all I ever wanted from life being guarded by some bloody unbreakable wall Seems I'll never get there Seems I'll never break through, thanks to you... Suck my dry! I give myself, my soul, my will I give it all to you Don't you dare let go I give my life, my whole I give it all to you! Seems I'll never get there Seems I'll never break through, thanks to you... I feel cheated on my enthuasism over certain aims I've set On the fundamental will to create Seems I'm always held back by her distant ways Seems she's pulling the leash every time I'm in need of a chase... Suck my dry! I give myself, my soul, my will I give it all to you Don't you dare let go I give my life, my whole I give it all to you! I need her to break me I like when she hates me I know there's a comfort in fading Vaguely declininng The pulse rising high as she tightens the grip The drought left behind as she empties it all... 4. Second And Last But Not Always Hanging by the thinnest of threads Trying to secure a decent grip before you slash the line Clearly, it's a futile act Truth be told that's how I felt the whole time Waiting for the verdict to fall You're not fit to stay here I knew it all along Visibly, I cannot help You were meant to assure me so I did not stray I felt it all along Obviously, I cannot help it You were meant to assure me... Can you recall? Realise, with bitter hindsight You were meant to applaud me, reassure me Instead you slash the line I knew it all along Visibly, I cannot help You were meant to assure me so I did not stray I felt it all along Obviously, I cannot help it You were meant to assure me My precious, my precious hell! 5. Revelling Masses The spread of tension mounting to the point it feels you're to explode Pressure rising, muscles cramp Then comes the blast of expectations You've got nowhere left to hide You've got nowhere left to hide You're struggling desperately to overcome the strain Lashing out at everyone, in vain The closing hit that match the marking of your first Delivered into chaos, you're alive You've got front row goddamn seats to gloat at misery The lack of empathy shines through I know you hear me, although unable to relate I know you hear me Live and breathe... from revelling masses Learn to feed on revelling masses The end is approaching Seeping in to lay it's veil-like calm upon you To soothe and ease an erratic mind The revelling masses starts to fade... 6. Leave-Takings Hear now, my pretty You're not around too frequently, so please note I miss you But certain things are still untold This I will bestow, apart from what you know Christ, I'm sorry love I'm a sinner Sought for by pity, hence every corner shelter Hunted shamelessly I think I'm giving in Truth be told, I'm feeling old I have no strength I'm a quitter! Leave-takings... Trust me, my pretty, when I say I'm truly sorry and notice I'll miss you But I am truthful to my name Honest with my shame I really need the blame Yes, I'm truthful to my name I'm a sinner Too weary to press on What was is forever gone Embittered by the trend What's broken you cannot mend... 7. The Cost Slaughter by the minute, profit by the day Everyone is in it, media accentuates Self is just a word now, meaningless to all Narcissistic models show you how to fall Think no more! Think no more! So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold? In truth, that is all you ever seem to do Exceeding, surpassing, mere growing, mere rising They're killing perception We're victims of craze The thinner the better, the weightless, beget her! The world breaking way, it's all in your head This is not an act, I hope you realize the pain it causes It's a goddamn fact, the amount of load put on our backs Murder by the minute, earnings by the day Everyone is in it, media accentuates We are just a market, watch us how we crawl Down on bloodied knees now, how they bought us all Think no more! Think no more! So, this... this is what you wanted to withhold? In truth, that is all you ever seem to do 8. Deadened I know that it is dark, love I know that it's hard to push ahead You might seem faint now but I know you'll shine with full force one day It's not as if I've killed you It's not as if you've died I might have fed you cancer but nothing you can't hide! I wish for progress I wish for growth, for you to prosper and show some backbone With you a circlet Wish you a throne, for you to strenghten, stand on your own I know I brought the plague, love O know that I chose side I'd make amends but it would cost too much merely for the ride Poor excuse, although a fact You knew from the start it was all an act I haven't always lacked concern A simple choice to have it burned But a door that leads to nowhere, a gun without a cause A letter lacking address or like anger without pause... I find you distancing yourself I find you mean, a cutting sharp infection, so hopelessly unclean! She stares with dead eyes, quitened, insane Her cancer's clear though, time and time again I need some help here She's lost control, a raving black disease inside her soul Her tongue is spiteful but means no ill It's this wretched cancer that slowlt kills... 9. One Warning I will not stop for anything I will not drop this for anyone You'll have to learn to appreciate the fact that you're the one I hate The one I hate! One warning, that's all you get One single notice, care to bet? Reach for my gun, soon to realise No matter what you'll be lying I wake at nights crying out for you Ear-splitting mindless point of views, point of views... One warning, that's all you get One single notice, care to bet? I wonder why, I wish you'd say I know you won't, to my dismay I cannot live like this and I really don't appreaciate what you sense... One warning, that's all you get One single notice, care to bet? 10. Settle Soon The black, closing around you... The lack, to tuck you in... Tears to bid you goodnight Fears to wake you just to find... The hurt, it's still there A short moment there you thought it was gone The promise never to forget The secret pledge of alltime suffering This fever will break ar some point The dark mist, settle soon Perhaps but one things certain I'll be there, try to guide you through... I'll be your light, your second sight Please let me guide your right I'd make amends and I'm recomprense for all If only I knew how I'll be your light, your second sight Please let me show the way back I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend whichever piece is broken I'll be your light, your second sight Please let me guide your right I'll be your light, your second sight Please let me show the way back I'll be your friend and I'll try to mend whichever piece is broken This fever will break at some point, the dark mist settle soon Perhaps but one things certain I'll be there, try to guide you through... Only if you want me to and only if you need me to... Just say the word, say the word, just say the word!