The Old Dead Tree
			     The End

1. Sorry

Light, gets colder and colder
Now even air's getting heavier
Something is changing all around
I must stay focused, both feet on the ground

I should try to manage
A way out, a strategy
But I'm tired of planning everything
Let's have a try on improvising

I'm so scarred
I feel sorry
I should better hide

It's not a real choice
But I keep pretending
I'm not the one I thought

I know you want me to get up
To grab back my stick and start to walk
I should find a new path:
The illusion can't last

But all your looks, your expectations,
Your sincere concerns just paralyze me

Too old
Too weak
I cannot start over

This bloody path has been chosen
too many years before

Sometimes I would like
To go back in time,
Make a few different choices
Become another kind of man


2. Someone Should Know (The Truth)

I can't stare at you after
what we've been through.
Can you?

We are bound now
I don't even know how.
Do you?

Oh would you please wipe that damn smile off your face
Cause we are now beyond redemption
You planned that from the beginning
I wish I could pretend I am not part of this mess

You never wanted us to get away
from this situation
You seemed fine and confident
full of temptations

Please figure out what they'll say
The will turn away from you and I

You think we'd better shut up
How could our little secret just fade away?

Somewhere, someone should know the truth
about you and I

Yes we should feel ashamed
For what we've done that day
I'm sorry we crossed the line
We cannot pretend that nothing happened
There's nowhere left to hide
We both know the price we have to pay
I've been through this once
and I can tell you that we're lost...


3. Kids

And here we go
The screams start to fill our whole life space
I must stay still
No there's no use to try to calm things down
Cause it's out of control

But when they start
Going wild with joy
I can't help myself
And I smile at my boys

When they look at me
I am more than myself
Cause I'm a father now
And there is nothing I can make...
...To change that fact

It seems to me you cannot stop
Running and jumping all around
Give me a break
Where is the «off button»?
I'm going mad
Can't you listen for once?

I can't find the words
To describe how your existence changed mine
For good
My life's been filled with meaning

(I) Can't help myself, I can't stop worrying
About a choice to make, a decision to take.

Being a parent makes me feel insecure
How would I feel sure about this life that's yours?

I love you, I'd like to
Guide you through your childhood
It's sometimes really hard to grow up in this life

Someday you will have to
Guide your own children through
The ambushes of life
Your kids


4. Raise

You ask yourself how to become
A man who can stand alone

You gave up on so many things
You just stopped counting them
Sometimes you have the feeling
That you should be someone else
That you should have done bigger things
You should live a bigger life
You disapoint nobody but yourself
Anyway, you remain unsatisfied
You wish, you're bigger, more handsome and clever
You wish you're upright, and strong during fights
But you're not, you're just another shmunk

It's not about who you are but who you want to be

You blame yourself all the time
And you wish you are stronger
«Just like your dad»
You can't see, you can't feel
And least of all be the same
Please realise that it is just a shame
A denial

Listen to me
It's not about who you are but who you want to be

You beg for more
What are you waiting for?

Please step out of the shadow
There are may ways to grow up and strong

Grow up!
Life's not a treadmill
Un running river carrying souls
A current.
You can embrace your future
Chose your own path and principles
Your mistakes.

I now you will soon find
Your way to raise


5. The End... Again

Again,
This is the end,
I'm on my knees
We shall not stand
together again
under the Tree.

Again,
final curtain
We dried our rain,
We shared our bread,
Endured the pain.
We remained close friends
But now we're dead.

We shall bury our souls
A funeral
A sounds graveyard
A water field

Farewell
We won't share anymore
the strong feeling
of crying as one
during the nights

Oh Fred
You were afraid,
My dear brother,
To let your love
resting alone
Six feet under