Paramaecium A Time to Mourn 1. A Moment [Music by I. Arkley] Life is a moment 2. I'm Not To Blame [Music by A. Tompkins and I. Arkley] The night becomes the day The darkness is swept away My life became the death The pain was in my last spoken breath They always rely Too much on me They hide and think I can't see They offer up their lies I see it lurking behind their eyes I'm not to blame The door has been left wide They have been left to decide It seems the more I gave The less I got, the more that they crave They always rely Too much on me They hide and think I can't see They think it's all a game And when it's done they call out my name But I'm not to blame I held the will to live But I decided to give In ways they could decry But choose instead to watch as I die They always rely Too much on me But they don't realise They always rely So much on me That they don't realise It's not up to me 3. My Thoughts [Music by A. Tompkins] My life, my days, they all just seem to pass away My dreams, my thoughts They all just seemed to come to nought I find each day has its own little story Each waking hour its own little glory The pages say that my soul has been borrowed The night time calls to my aching, Tomorrow never comes My life, my days, they all just seem to pass away My dreams, my thoughts They all just seemed to come to nought My life, my days, they all just seem to pass away My thoughts, my dreams, All are seldom what they seem Given time all the pain seems to melt away Even time cannot heal that which Promised to stay for evermore Given time even pain I can hold in sway I will wait with it hidden then loosed on the final day At times I've hated the lives of the living Wished all could see their salacious forgiving The pages say that my soul has been borrowed Can't spend my life Making sure that tomorrow never comes My life, my days My dreams, my thoughts At times I've hated the lives of the living 4. Betrayed Again [Music by A. Tompkins] I have been betrayed again All my rights have been denied All my friends have turned me in I have been betrayed by them Even though I have done my all Even tempered I've thought it through Though in pain had the wherewithall To suspect they were hurting too In the night time I cry In the night time I lie In the night time I die In the night time I cry that I have been betrayed I have been betrayed again Silent curses filled my mind Terror waits, I can't condemn (Though) I have been betrayed by them Patient minded in certitude That this anguish will over time Take the remnants of servitude To the heights of the near sublime In the night time I cry In the night time I lie In the night time I die In the night time I cry that I have been betrayed 5. Enter In Time [Music by A. Tompkins and I. Arkley] From the outside all appeared serene The garden framing a dreamlike scene In the beginning the house was new The rooms were warm there was much to do I opened up the door and walked through And maybe now I've come to see the light is whiter And the life will enter in time It's always whiter and the life is ever in time Gravely the old man with greyish hair Waiting sadly beneath the stair Frail hands reaching out anew Called for me, bid me thereinto (I hate myself) I opened up the door and walked through And maybe now I've come to see the light is whiter And the life will enter in time It's always whiter and the life is ever in time All I have left is this memory Thoughts of how loving used to be All I have left is this tainted view Painfully, I'm in love with you. I open up the door and walk through And maybe now I've come to see the light is whiter And the life will enter in time It's always whiter and the life is ever in time. 6. Live For The Day [Music by A. Tompkins and I. Arkley] The light of morn pours through the window To settle on pages torn The book, so old, vainly the truth waits for Someone to read but is untold Time is running out for the answer is clearer now Behind the ordinary lives something quite impure A latent visionary sees that which can't endure They take away the sadness, they take away the pain They say she'll never have to think for herself again Live for the day, live life the way you want to Give what you may But don't let them take life from you Too young, too shy, but even her ancestors Knew not when they would die The sands of time slipping away Whilst she meditates on her last crime Time is running out for the answer is clearer now Behind the ordinary lives something quite impure Holy they masquerade and purport to hold the cure They take away the sadness, they take away the pain They say she'll never have to think for herself again Live for the day, live and do what you want to Give what you may But don't let them take life from you Live for the day, live life the way you want to Give what you may But don't let them take life from you They're counting the sands of time They're touching the sound of moonlight They're sealing the book of life They're taking the truth from time Behind the ordinary lives something quite impure The taste of innocence found That taste which can't endure They take away the sadness, they take away the pain They say she'll never have to think for herself again Live for the day, live and do what you want to Give what you may But don't let them take life from you Live for the day, live life the way you want to Give what you may But don't let them take life from you 7. Even The Walls [Music by A. Tompkins and I. Arkley] Faded by the hands of time Faint echoes of my childhood dream The images of days gone by Are seldom what they seem The candlelight spells out my name The breeze from below leads the dance of the flame Suddenly no one recalls Yesterday's men have vacated the halls And they all stay away from the home of their youth And they all say they pray but pretend with the truth I know I once was like them, old in word and deed But my youth survived and revived The ravages of need Never has an open door Presented me itself to claim Even though the walls persist In singing out my name Even the walls know my name The candlelight flickers the dance of the flame Suddenly no one recalls All of my deeds are adorning the halls And the way that I've lived Makes the world that I've known And I know what I give I must give on my own For it seems each room holds the key To open other doors As I make my way through the house I'm finding more and more Folded years before this day The dust has found its chance to fall The note from one of loving thoughts Was never read at all Even the walls know my name The candlelight flickers the dance of the flame Suddenly no one recalls what they said Yesteryear's heroes are waking up dead And I owe my whole life to the name on the page And I look to my wife in the midst of my age We both have lived with the thought Of travelling afar For this house is old and our home Will find us where we are 8. Unceasing [Music by I. Arkley] Life is unceasing Produced by Andrew Tompkins. Recorded and mixed variously at Toyland Recording Studio and The Operating Theatre, Melbourne. Mastered by Don Bartley at Studios 301, Sydney. All lyrics written by Andrew Tompkins