Evereve Tried & Failed 1. Tried & Failed I'm still pretending I'm still with you I'm in the eye of the storm I'm still longing for your taste Please release me, I'm with you Dark is the season Dark is the sky Burned the bridges one by one Voices turning in my head Soon I will break 'Cause I tried and I failed There's nothing left I can call my haven A travesty we create together We rose and we fell This pain inside me will last forever You're still pretending You're still with me You're the best friend of mine Empty bottles on the floor Please release me, I'm with you I keep on standing Keep on pretending What I used to be - Bring me down I keep on fighting on and on Uphold the fallacy - Down to you I keep on lying, keep on denying But I feel I can't take it no more - Bring me down I'm still pretending... 2. You're Mine Maybe crimes must be done Your fallen prophet's on the run Surrender to your deepest rage Celebrate the dying age For I am the scar in you All is done - is done for the best For I am the crack in you All is done You adored me You called for me Licked your wounds just for me As light began to fade Anxiety prevailed I destroyed you - I am your blood Broke your wings in two - I am deep within Penetrating you I embraced you - I am your flesh Took your breath away from you - I'm in your dreams Suffocating you You belong to me You're mine Maybe you just wonder why Is all I told you worth the price? Trust me, I will show you bliss Caress you with my poisoned gift I betrayed you I mislead you Still I hold you Anxiety prevails 3. A Scornful Love Scorn has come when affection has gone A serpent queen with a filthy crown Cover me with your scarlet tongue Believe me, my dear I won't let you down Purified by supremacy I bleed The urge to overcome this loss - save me Those who always hunt for infinity - save me Will be the ones on the cross A scornful laugh remains I can't forgive A scornful laugh remains I can't forget Today is the day... Truth is nothing but the knife in my hands An empty look, the will to proceed - save me The party is over when the music ends - save me How can it taste so sweet Today is the day Our dreams come to an end I share my tragedy with you Today is the day A scornful laugh remains I share my tragedy with you Now suffer with me Scorn has come when affection has gone 4. Desire Look inside me Stare into the void The blooms of weakness I have shattered A broken pride lies in this broken glass A crystal shiver I'm starving, starving Dance with me for the last time Betray me like before Sing with me for the last time It's all about desire Beneath the hollow There's no will to fight The ashen fragments of indulgence I can't talk, I can't move I'm out in the cold I'm starving, starving This misery we call our life This senseless struggle deep inside This paranoid disloyalty It's all about desire I conquered my Eden But it was only for the blink of an eye - We've gone too far You say you never wanted to hurt me Always by my side As we climbed up to the sky - We touched the sky Betray me one more time It's all about failure... 5. Pine Oil Heaven Sometimes I remember teardrops falling from the sky Like silent screams of famished memories Howling in the night Sometimes I destroy splendour by my own despair I stay awake 'til morning breaks Hopelessly gasping for air Again I recoil - On and on I roam With my back against this blood red soil This is heaven - But I'm not sanctified Pine Oil Heaven Sometimes I'm ashamed of myself, of my own dismay I open my mouth and preach forgiveness but I'm the one to blame Sometimes I take love for granted, room without a view My hand gets lost in glowing darkness, reaching out just for you Again I seek - On and on I roam The blemished roots of my conceit This is heaven - But I'm not sanctified It's my heaven Pine Oil Heaven On and on I roam On and on I seek Sic transit gloria mundi! It's ironic 6. I Am Not Afraid (Of Losing You) There's a demon inside of me It is buried in my heart It's a need unsatisfied Right now it is lying in wait Right now it is tearing me apart This addiction to delight When I'm left here all alone When there is nothing to see There is no turning back I feel pity for myself For all my unconscious guilt I reveal my frailty Time heals nothing I'm not afraid I'm not afraid of losing you again I'm neither grateful nor am I giving up to you There's a frown, a perfect reproach That is still imprisoning me In your alabaster walls It's impossible to fly When you clip someone's wings And push him on the ground I'm not afraid of leaving you again I' m really sorry But I never ever needed you Only bad dreams come true They do! My lips move but I hear no sound My legs tremble 'cause I lost the ground The king is dead, long live the king You wouldn't think about rain in spring 7. Anima Sola I'm a sinner but I know The skin is often harder than the core I hold on Contemptousness will follow me... No more will the glory of grotesque Adorn your lifeless limbs Like an eerie arabesque Locked in you Anima Sola - World keeps turning Anima Sola - World keeps burning So burn for me / burn with me I'm a servant of your grace Captivated in sobriety Why am I crawling further on? In apathy It's been too many words and too many lies It's been too many years without being alive It's been a long long road, never reaching the end Too many wasted moments No more will I be pushed again into your golden cage No more will I lay my arms around your bait 8. On Thin Ice Do you accuse me for my deeds? Do you think I am just a hypocrite? A man of contradictions I am If everything is possible Seize the day without regrets A man of contradictions I am I'm deep in your feelings - I'm breathing, breathing... I'm deep in your thoughts - I'm bleeding, bleeding... I'm deep in your body - I'm breathing, breathing... I'm deep in your heart - ...in you I won't go away It's the rotten kiss Of paradise - the scent of fear It's how you feel When you walk on thin ice For the first time of my life Devotion is a sacrilege A man of contradictions I am Though everything is possible We're nothing more but cynical "Per aspera ad astra" ...ad astra? It's the guilt you see In lovers' eyes - the hand of fate It's how you feel When you walk on thin ice So dine me and wine me then 69 me And redefine me Again and again and again and again and again As best as you can 9. Hide From Me I saw merciful deceivers in the shadow of death They cannot break the chains I saw consecrated mourners in the shape of a cross Taking part in the game It's just a game we're playing - I can't find you Like fools we're playing - I look for you, where are you? Despite all swearing You made away Why do you hide from me? What has become of my belief? Who'll be the one to set me free? Why do you hide from me? I saw admirable dictators trying hard to maintain The burning veil of time I saw beautiful avengers in black limousines Saw them struggling in vain It's more than betrayal Much more than betrayal Be careful what you pray for 'Cause you walked through that door It's just a game 10. Forsaken You used to control me No more than a puppet on a string You used to behold me Writhing down on the ground Destiny is a waste of hope Pardon my compassion A pathetic man in a pathetic world Each night - another needle in my skin So look into my eyes I'm forsaken Let my spirit receive the light You used to exploit me No more than a face in the crowd You used to terrify me For the sake of delusion Come with me, don't leave me now In liquid neon chaos Thorns of joy ignite my veins Each day - another needle in my skin I'm blind - Let your sterile harvest Be reduced to dust No faith - Let your false messiah Testify his lust I'm blind - When your shallow wastelands Are redeemed by the tide No faith - Hear the crimson choir "Let there be light!" Collapsing, misleading, no shelter, I'm freezing Raising my shadows, my ruins are hallowed You used to control me... 11. Before Sunrise Before sunrise All fears will drown in my eyes Before sunrise The earth will devour my cries And I will feel an ease I'm godless, I'm blind I am the king of depravity I am the slave of decay Now insanity / serenity is closing in I'll go my way It's time to leave... Before sunrise This pleasant fiction of mine will be vaporized Before sunrise A deathwish will capture my mind I'm godless