Aborym
Hostile
1. Disruption
Silence is the key to keep my will under control
Kept til the moment I can’t withstand it anymore
Once you told me there’s a single way to escape it all
Consequence is lacking. There’s no thinking anymore
Silence is the key to erode your ego and alibi
Hopes and wishes set aflame. There’s nothing to deny
Thought you were in heaven but you were living in hell
The dawn of your return grants me paralyzed consciousness
Striving for perfection and hiding when it comes
Seeing its reflection and the fire it becomes
My hunger not satiated. I must leave you behind
None to blame. Finger deep within the borderline
Twelve o’clock depression boredom turns to drowsiness
I drink another glass of red. I can’t do anything else
there’ s some kind of something going on. I feel it in the air
My doubtful trembling thoughts turns to embraced senseless despair
I have become insensitive. Hard times just don’t go away
My fire, it knew no pain. yet is it dead? Though I remain
I took the shame, I’m one with hurt, I piss on your lies
I’m heading for the border. Alone I can’t fear to die
Silence is the key to keep my will under control
Kept til the moment I can’t withstand it anymore
Once you told me there’s a single way to escape it all
Consequence is lacking. There’s no thinking anymore
Silence is the key to erode your ego and alibi
Hopes and wishes set aflame. There’s nothing to deny
Thought you were in heaven but you were living in hell
The dawn of your return grants me paralyzed consciousness
Striving for perfection and hiding when it comes
Seeing its reflection and the fire it becomes
My hunger not satiated. I must leave you behind
None to blame. Finger deep within the borderline
2. Proper Use of Myself
Scared of not knowing, of knowing too much
Scared of being a joke, of being able to trust
Scared of feeling the fool, scared of what I just smoked
Scared of losing a sibling, of losing a friend
Hurt
Pain
Love it
Proper use of myself
Scared of showing emotion, of showing weakness
Scared of being a father, of the consequence
Scared of being too happy, scared of always being sad
Scared of being threatened, scared of being hit
Scared of being a memory, scared of being forgotten
Scared of nobody being there when I finally die
Scared of nobody caring, scared of facing god
Proud to be fuel for the losers’ fire
Hurt
Pain
Love it
Proper use of myself
3. Horizon Ignited
I forgot how to breathe
I feed myself while my sadic mind
dreams up a world where I’m alone
where nightmares fade away, slowly
Disappointment hones to an edge
waiting for the nod to slice
to the bone without respite
Can’t you hear me?
Do it, save myself
I crave
Horizon ignited
holes in the clouds by twos
I’m everything that you claim to be
Can’t you hear me?
Do it, save myself
I crave
Can’t you hear me?
Do it, save myself
I prey
As above so below
I come spinning out
of the nothingness
there is no reason why
I should dread the ghost
hidden inside me
inside my body
Can’t you hear me?
Do it, save myself
I crave
Try to catch me
I just blame myself
Hide me
4. Stigmatized (Robotripping)
While your god was sleeping, mine was having fun
Nothing changes behavior like pain
everybody turns their back on us
faces dimmed by memory still heard
and madness may be here and the sounds are gone
And it hangs around, the way
Everybody wants to jump in with their sympathy
and they pretend to built walls of concrete
until they see the reality
They became a consumer
of the needs they create everyday
Will they die before they wake up and perish
by the coming day?
While your god was sleeping, mine was having fun
Nothing changes behavior like pain
everybody turns their back on us
faces dimmed by memory still heard
and madness may be here and the sounds are gone
Down the senseless pit of despair
their direction is out of control
they demand to swim in dried up lake
in a collection of impurities
up is down, left could be right
There is no moon or sun to shine bright
Just clouds, which seem to orbit this place
In a beautiful blue they keep their little race
While your god was sleeping
mine was having fun
Nothing changes behavior like pain
everybody turns their back on us
faces dimmed by memory still heard
and madness may be here
and the sounds are gone
5. The End of a World
The world as we know it, will come to an end
Just stay, enjoy the show, worship the big bang
This marks the sad last day of our dna
I don’t want to miss all the great fun
when it finally blows
I’m standing at the highest point of the hill
I wish all of you could see this on TV
look at these young men trying to eat a big fish
like arctic animals they burrow through the wreckage
and their memories
the end of a world
no lights from the satellite
Soon they’ll see us from
a million miles away
the end of a world
a swirl of eerie lights
millions of them
they move like cosmic firef lies
First the lights will go out in Vegas, London, then Rome
Riot police is trying to control the unruly crowd
How much quicker can you escape what you fear?
bodies encircle a fire pit
they resemble the rays of the sun
the end of a world
no lights from the satellite
Soon they’ll see us from a million miles away
the end of a world
a swirl of eerie lights
millions of them
they move like cosmic fireflies
6. Wake Up. Rehab
I’m seeing purple, seeing various greens
fuzzy channels on my TV screen
Electrified colours ‘round my head
it’s a rainbow, I’m already dead
Now I am home, I sure as hell know what to do
I’ll sleep it all off, pass out in bed
I’ve licked the dirty needle graced with pain
my feelings slowly washing down the drain
Electrified colours all over my skin
Forever living in a trance of sin
Now I’m alone, a voice is telling me right from wrong
tonight the devil is the only one singing the song
I see magic way up in the sky
I tell myself that the voice was a lie
Pins rushing through my body, thoughts of insane
deception slither in my brain
I’m seeing purple, seeing various greens
fuzzy channels on my TV screen
Electrified colours ‘round my head
it’s a rainbow
I’m already dead
7. Lava Bed Sahara
Colors fading around us, where do we go?
Steadily walking ‘til we find the shadow
an endless nothing. such a long way from home
The sun sits high. Death walks behind
Crawling on the sand like turtles. are we dying?
Plodding past bleached out skulls of the ones who came before me
Nobody knows where we are. Nobody cries when we die
discouraged ones
our pulse is racing again, slowly...
Where are we now?
Slowly up the sand mountain we go
we’ll sleep beneath the eagles nest
The scorpion raises his head eying me
the merciless sun shines with unbearable beams
Supplicate the sky for a drop of water
Shade is our immaculate ecstasy. We die free.
Nobody knows where we are. Nobody cries when we die
discouraged ones
our pulse is racing again, slowly...
Where are we now?
8. Radiophobia
Can’t you see? the màssive gaping hole
and the awful scarlet glow
Uranium 235, a bullet
running at the speed of light
Алло. Это ВПЧ-2?
Да.
Что у вас там горит?
Взрыв… на главком корпусе… между третим и четвертым блоком.
А там люди есть?
Да.
Подымай наш состав.
Подымаю. Начальника поднял.
Всех. Всех. Весь состав, офицерский корпус подымай!
Can’t you see? the màssive gaping hole
and the awful scarlet glow
A place where ruin itself
has planted its seed
This place was built for sin
Tell me why you make things so complicated?
you can neither expiate
nor mystify the mistakes
Nothing can be erased, nothing canceled
Pain endures in the beating hearts
inflamed memory of fear
Леонид Алексеевич?
Да.
Алло. Припять. Третий и четвертый блок в результате аварии. Взрыва.
…давай. Так уже подтвердили?
Не подтвердили. Там авария произошла у них. Это диспетчер Припяти сказала.
Пожарная охрана.
Алло. Иванков?
Да-да.
Значит. Вы выезжаете в Припять… алло!
Да-да, я слышу.
На атомную станцию выезжайте. Там третий, четвертый блок горит крыша.
Fire in the turbine hall
black smoke
The core exploded. It’s all right
meltdown
A prayer, or a memory
a goodbye
and the mute sound of the world
fades away
Intense, searing pain
it’s all right
tons of burning steel
and graphite
Terrible kaleidoscope
bloodline
One aims. Another falls. decline
9. Sleep
Sleep my sweet friend, red lights have all gone grey
The deafening noise turns into calm, so profound
Sleep... Don’t lay too close to the edge of the bed
Or little grey wolf will come and grab you by the flank
Take your guitar, show me what you wrote last night
Naive and confessional verses that cut like a knife
Show me the way to be proud, to be careless and cold
Teach me how to transform all the filth into gold
Lay down and sleep my brother
I feel that urge to run
I can’t explain why we lost our minds from the start
I shake my head to clear the image of a wraith
Hours watching the wall, bested by my anxiety
What I learned I rejected. I won’t believe again
Dismay inside
Sense of smother
and now I bet you got me wrong
10. Nearly Incomplete
Knocking, knocking, who is there?
Waiting, waiting, O how fair!
‘Tis a Pilgrim, strange and kingly
Never such was seen before
Knocking, knocking, still He’s there
Waiting, waiting, wondrous fair
But the door is hard to open
For the weeds and Ivy vine
Into the last good fight
I’ll never know
I live
and die
on this day
Save me! you motherfucker absentee!
Either kill me or take me as I am
because I’ll be damned if I ever change
There’s no god, nature sufficeth unto herself
Knocking, knocking, who is there?
Waiting, waiting, O how fair!
‘Tis a Pilgrim, strange and kingly
Never such was seen before
Knocking, knocking, still he’s there
Waiting, waiting, wondrous fair
But the door is hard to open
For the weeds and Ivy vine
11. The Pursuit of Happiness
Your mind is playin’ tricks on you
That’s cold beneath your feet
Burn the infected wounds
and all the crap left incomplete
Wear the abnegation
erase the pictures in your mind
Claim the cult of hesitation
leave the pieces left behind
Fear and panic feel so sweet
you’ve been used with deceit
it’s time for you to haunt the dreams
of those who stole your breath
Still the thought of happiness
haunts you like a ghost
One day it will catch you and give
you the skill to breathe
You cry and pray the best you can
while going down on your knees
Choking down your voices as you hit
the wall of concrete
Still the thought of happiness
haunts you like a ghost
One day it will catch you and give
you the skill to breathe
...but not now...
12. Harsh and Educational
How’s it feel? When everything is not as you hoped
They did everything to leave me behind
I always felt anxious whenever I spoke to someone
I can’t reveal what happened that night
Feeling like everything I do is wrong, they said
they forced me to unlearn what is right
Mama taught me never to give unsolicited advice
yeah it’s harsh, but it makes sense
How’s it feel? When they destroy everything I’ve built
Instead of pulling me up they let me fall
They treat me as if I was invisible
They leave me there and turn off the light
Harsh and educational
Sweet revengeful act
Vengeance
Harsh and educational
Suffering
is where I come from
I used to plant
flowers along your spine
Now I take them back
and I wish you pain
13. Solve et Coagula
Come alive on the driver’s side
spread your legs. Cleanse me
smiles elude psychotic eyes
Let me do me. Enslave me
Bruise me. Make me feel alive
ride the snake. Abuse me
The more you fuck
the more you need
Make me cum. Amaze me
so I may grow in you
let me penetrate the sky
Solve et coagula
take it ‘til
it breaks your spine
time to use your tongue
upon my flesh
taste the salts of my skin
to thee sickly sweets from within
Let me cum. Disgrace me
So I may grow in you
Let me penetrate the sky
Solve et Coagula
take it ‘til
it breaks your spine
14. Magical Smoke Screen
Clues everywhere
Our world. A magical smoke screen
No matter how far
down the scale we’ve gone
Coming down. Wrong side
What lies beyond the unknown?
your aura led me away from
my turbulence
at night I hear the cries
Swollen eyes start to bleed
Despite my weird youth
the owl fades away from me
to serve the lord
I go down on my knees
the black owl sings
As the night wind blows
the magical rustling that brings
on the dark dream
Balance is the key
a magical smoke screen
an evil man has a way
no matter how clever
to the trained eye
his way will show itself
Is there a reason
for a death mask?
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