Klabautamann
Numbered
1. Snow
I thought of you so many times
What you do and where you are
Memories slowly fading through the years
You never said that much
But I believed your smile, believed you
Everybody finds something
If they're looking for it
If you could start again
What difference would it make
The future was now, you said
The future was now
He asked me if I remembered
He said it snowed that night
It snowed from the Baltics
To the mountains but noone could see
The future was now, you said
The past came crawling from behind
The future was now
If you could start again
What difference would it make
If you could start again
What could you change
Time has worn out another man
Time has worn out another family
Time has worn out another life
You were only tired of the wait
I am looking out my window
Night has fallen over Europe
Once we believed in our future
But now it snows again
And when I think of you
It starts to snow again
And every time it does
A little bit dies
Of me
2. Changed
The world has changed again
Ten times is not enough
You are left behind again
From somewhere to something
It ne'er stops running away
A child is born
You have seen the eyes before
You have heard the words before
But you would blame her still
You still blame me and everybody else
The past is a place
Too painful and too dark
Is the past
You are left behind again
Tell me now where you want to go
Tell me now if you know
Not everybody gets what they deserve
Some are too afraid and some are too confused
Some are too afraid to be lonely
Our past is running out of later
We are running out of later now
3. Daydream
I fear to pierce my skin
I try to lose myself
I need the pain
It gives me hope
Too many strings keeping tune
Dissonant self infliction
I need the pain
It gives me hope
I need the pain
It gives me hope
Cutting lines or cutting veins
In a daydream I reside
I need your grief, I need my share
I feel the loneliness I see
All the while acceptance lingers
Though it never satisfies
An overdose of projection
My life is not enough for me
4. Conflicted
Did I, did I become?
All my, my memories
All the, the roles I was to play
Have I, have I once dreamed?
Beyond, beyond the night
Enough to, to take my life away
Should I, should I confess?
Silent, unspoken truths
Secret urges that I embrace
Will I, will I fulfil?
Another one's lifetime
With all the, the demons that I face
Look at me and tell me
Is this really who you are?
I am but a reflection
Every doubt another riddle
Who am I supposed to be?
Am I asking the right questions?
Look at me and tell me
Is this really who I am?
Shall I, shall I reclaim?
Am I to follow you?
Leading myself towards defeat
Can I, can I push back?
As they pull hard on me
Shards of resentment at my feet
Can I, can I convince?
My final judgment now
Before I draw just one last breath
Who is, who is to live?
Maybe tomorrow still?
For I am birth and I am death
Look at me and tell me
Is this really who you are?
I am but a reflection
Every doubt another riddle
Who am I supposed to be?
Am I asking the right questions?
Look at me and tell me
Is this really who I am?
5. Pretending
When midnight comes
And she is asleep
I get up again
Despair crawls in again
I am weeping quietly in this empty room
One day you'll realize that everything hurts
Dark light shines through those cracks
Somebody is in Paris now
Drinking expensive wines
Drinking expensive wines
But I'm still waiting
Waiting for tomorrow
Waiting for a chance
And I think of all the flowers
I don’t want to see
I don’t want to feel
I don’t want to owe
I want something
We are the men
Who cannot talk
We are the men
Who cannot sleep
We are the men
Who cannot change
Desperate enough to cry
From the villages to the city
Coast to coast
Fear to despair
From the beginning to the end
We know we are all the same
We are the men
We are the fear
We are the end
We are the misery
And she's sleeping next door
6. Holding On
And still I am holding on
To the thought
That someone's waiting there
Every breath that I'm taking now
Might be the last
Just let me go, don't hold me back
When will we meet again
Oh, will we meet again
When will we talk again
Will we laugh again
Just rip my heart apart
So I don't have to feel you go
Cut out my eyes
So the tears don't run no more
When will we meet again
Oh, will we meet again
When will we talk again
Will we laugh again
I'm still awaiting this darkness
The fear of the unknown awaits
Silence is what I'm afraid of
Just tell me I won't be alone
And still I am holding on
To the thought
That someone's waiting there
Every breath that I'm taking now
Might be the last
Just let me go, don't hold me back
7. Numbered
Just so many moments
Have you counted?
Just so many questions
Have you counted?
Just so many faces
Have you counted?
We all are numbered
Never thought we'd get this far?
But here we are
Just so many chances
Have you counted?
Just so many losses
Have you counted?
We all are numbered
Never thought we'd get this far?
But here we are
Just so many secrets
Have you counted?
Just so many memories
Have you counted?
8. Felt Everything
The wind has left scars
That cover your face
The sands of time have
Weakened your legs
You've seen everything, felt everything
No more dreams left to fulfill
What once was a strong bone
Now there's left only dry wood
That holds your flesh
Paranoid mind
Loss of control
Your trembling hands
Loosing it all
Awaiting the end
But there's no fear
Longing for death
Salvation is near
Who is it I see
What's left there of me
Ghost of the past
A rotting tree
Almost to weak
To stand at all
But eyes full of strength
You could take it all
You've seen everything, felt everything
No more dreams left to fulfill
What once was a strong bone
Now there's left only dry wood
That holds your flesh
Memories coming to mind
Of childhood and of those who have died
The mirror has cracked
You smashed it apart
Ashamed of yourself
You retreat to the dark
You've seen everything, felt everything
No more dreams left to fulfill
What once was a strong bone
Now there's left only dry wood
That holds your flesh
9. Gone
The last morn came silent
Fragile shine, faint craving
As I walk serenely
I breathe in deeply
When I’m gone
Sun will shine again
When I’m gone
Time will carry on
When I’m gone
Sun will shine again
When I’m gone
Time will carry on
Last year, I was searching
Last year, I was strong
Last year, I was dreaming
Last year, I was free
I don’t know for certain
What will be tomorrow
As I walk serenely
I breathe in deeply
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