Pantheist
The Pains of Sleep
1. The Pains Of Sleep
Ere on my bed my limbs I lay
It hath not been my use to pray
With moving lips or bended knees
But silently, by slow degrees
My spirit I to Love compose
In humble trust mine eye-lids close
With reverential resignation
No wish conceived, no thought expressed
Only a sense of supplication
A sense o'er all my soul impressed
That I am weak, yet not unblessed
Since in me, round me, every where
Eternal Strength and Wisdom are
But yester-night I prayed aloud
In anguish and in agony
Up-starting from the fiendish crowd
Of shapes and thoughts that tortured me
Sense of intolerable wrong
And whom I scorned, those only strong
Thirst of revenge, the powerless will
Still baffled, and yet burning still
Desire with loathing strangely mixed
On wild or hateful objects fixed
Fantastic passions ! maddening brawl
And shame and terror over all
Deeds to be hid which were not hid
Which all confused I could not know
Whether I suffered, or I did
For all seemed guilt, remorse or woe
My own or others still the same
Life-stifling fear, soul-stifling shame
So two nights passed, the night's dismay
Saddened and stunned the coming day
Sleep, the wide blessing, seemed to me
Distemper's worst calamity
The third night, when my own loud scream
Had waked me from the fiendish dream
O'ercome with sufferings strange and wild
I wept as I had been a child
And having thus by tears subdued
My anguish to a milder mood
Such punishments, I said, were due
To natures deepliest stained with sin
For aye entempesting anew
The unfathomable hell within
The horror of their deeds to view
To know and loathe, yet wish and do
Such griefs with such men well agree
But wherefore, wherefore fall on me
To be beloved is all I need
And whom I love, I love indeed
2. Pavor Nocturnus
3. For Funerals To Come
[Katatonia cover]
Through the bleak window of my soul
In marble halls of falling snow
Winter touch the Earth undone
Embittered we embrace the funerals to come
4. Intro (1000 Years)
5. Time
It's time to move on
Time to leave my shelter
And step into this world
I had turned my back to
Time to find some joy
Time to share some happiness
My God, I forgot how to love and hate
Is this the world?
Is this my new shelter?
How could I base my hope on this?
Where can I find
Some light into this darkness
How can I build the fortress of truth
On a foundation of lies?
It's time to say goodbye
Time to move back into the shelter
I created for my own good
Time to cover my eyes
Not to see the faces
That betray their cold indifference
But I shall return to burn their houses down
-the houses built on lies and apathy-
To claim back my place I have never found
To break the silence
With a cry of desperation
6. Lust
How I long for the tender flesh
Of the Virgin
For the subdued look in her eyes
When she starts to suspect that
I'm the angel
Who is going to embrace her
I'm Jesus' father
And therefore God
Ignored by history
But not by fate
7. Envy Us
We, the dead, can not understand
Why these mortals don't envy us
In silence and peace we rest, but we don't exist
We have so many things in common
Why are they afraid of us? We can't understand
Our lives are over, theirs have no meaning
What have they got that we don't have?
Beautiful is our realm
Our kingdom no one can resist
In solitude's eternal bliss
Together we shall not exist
8. Liefde Voor Niemand
Nooit meer mijn hart zul je ineenkrimpen, in twee breken
want het gevoel dat jou zo deed lijden, was de liefde voor niemand
Onpersoonlijke liefde, gericht op een glimlach, een speels blik, een gouden haarlok, de aanraking van een zacht lichaam
zo zacht, sidderend zacht dat slechts de herinnering overblijft
lijkt mij te beurt te zijn gevallen
Als een magneet lijkt deze liefde zonder gezicht
Alle momenten van eenheid en geluk naar zich toe te hebben getrokken
Egodstische liefde was het, en alles wat ook maar een beetje echt was
Werd als gebroken kristal over de grond gestrooid
Liefde voor iedereen was het, dacht ik
Liefde voor jou, voor hen, voor alleman
Maar de folterende pijn die me steeds overtuigde om voor allen te lijden
Was eigenlijk een waarschuwing: diep in mezelf wist ik, denk ik
Dat de liefde voor allen de liefde voor niemand is...
9. 1000 Years
1000 years of solitude
1000 years of pain
hardened my heart
fed my poor soul with misery
I can't even tell
am I dead, am I alive?
Don't hesitate, penetrate me with your sting
I don't know how to cry
I won't even bleed
Don't even worry if I might die
At least then I'll know that I was alive
1000 years of isolation
the closer to you, the lonelier I get
I could vanish in your presence
You wouldn't even notice
Maybe I already did, how should I know ?
Current line-up:
Kostas Panagiotou [Vocals, Keyboards]
Andy Semmens [Vocals]
Mark Bodossian [Vocals]
Ilia Rodriguez [Guitars, Vocals]
Pete Benjamin [Guitars]
Sterghios [Drums]
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