Subrosa
The Worm Has Turned (demo)
1. The Hours I Keep
Oh mother Oh fatherYou gave me lifeYou gave me deathOh mother Oh fatherYou loved me wellYou can't help me nowThere is no escape.Dark water is all aroundOn the broken bridgeRevere is boundA dead-end mazeDark passagewaysSynapse collapseReality breakThere is no escape.It's morningTwelve hours of sleepYou won't believe the hours I keepA veil is placed before my eyesI can't see myselfI can't see their liesThere is no escapeI'm buried in this bag of skinWith sham circuitryWhere do I begin?Oh mother Oh fatherYou gave me lifeYou gave me deathThere is no escape.
2. Self-Rule
Fixed bayonets in the crisp autumn airAnd I have to wonder why I don't even careScarlet epaulets and well-oiled hairI have to wonder, really have to wonderI invade the nations of the poorBut I can't fight my own battles, can't find a cureI'll make them feel my rod till they can't take anymoreCan't find a cure, can't find a cureA cry of war is heard throughout the landBut all I have is self-blame on handI'll crush their kingdom with a fistful of sandSelf-blame on hand, self-blame on hand.I'll subject you to horrorI'll subject you cause I can't rule myselfI rule a nationI rule a nation but I can't rule myselfFixed bayonets in the crisp autumn airAnd I have to wonder why I don't even careI have to wonder why I don't even careI have to wonder, really have to wonder
3. Indian Summer
MidnightHarvest moonWe'll catch the coachNot a moment too soon,My love. let's fly away from here.Autumn blushYour first touchIndian summer begins at dusk,My love.Our love will never die,Our love will never die.Winter paleKilling frostThe doctor says prepare for loss,My love.Let's fly away from here.Steel ground,Fresh grave,They laid us together, we'll make our way,My love.Our love will never die.
4. Jailbreak
It's been 18 years in this prison cellSeparated from my best friendHe lives out in the men's wingI send him pictures in my head.How long must I suffer, Lord?How much can I take?How long must I languish, Lord,Before they come take me away,Take me away?Gonna get free,Gonna get free tonight.I send the blueprints from my thoughtsAnd we plan our escape.We ain't goin' nowhere without our friends,So we tell them all the date.Bessy's got the sledgehammerAnd Marvin's got the screw.Sally's got the heart of the guard,She knows just what to do.Gonna get free,Gonna get free tonight.We make our way in the moonlight,It helps us on our way,By the time they find our empty beds,We're 18 miles away,18 miles away.Hold me tight.Hold me tight tonight.
5. How To Neglect Your Heart
They laugh at me, I'm all aloneThey question me in jagged tonesThey try to tell me what's trueAnd what's not trueAs if they knew, as if they knewThey tell me how to feelThey tell me what I'm worthThey tell me how I've failedAll in their own wordsThey tell me how to love and how to get alongPassion's all right as long as it's not too strongHere's how you play the gameHere's how you play your partHere's how you go alongHere's how to neglect your heartFixed lifeLike the starsNever moving, never far
6. Inkfish Dirge
7. Rapunzel
Flailing under the auspices of a broken kingdomStuttering up the stairs of a broken houseThe golden mansionThe hanging boudoirThe flowers, thick and heavy.Blown away by rusting debrisIn the belly of the gutted towerRapunzel dies today, Rapunzel diesCinched tight by her own hairGolden self-destruct, miles long,Neverending, neverending.Passes over your skin soft as angel's breathHelp me. Help me. Help me.I found myself choking on golden stardustComing up from my gutMy innermost nucleusBut then I realizedI was choking on the ashes of a dead sun.Help me. Help me. Help me.
8. Mirror
I took the safe road, I took the easy roadIt looked so safe and comfortingThere wasn't any trouble as far as I could see.Avoided the twisty road,Avoided the unknown,My daddy said that was the devil's wayAnd God don't work in mystery noways.Though I keep on trying to believe that there's an end to all this painI just keep moving on, I can't stop to think too long, oh no.Though I keep on trying to believe that there's a way to be set freeI just keep losin' hold of the things that once gave me relief.Got married in the winter, gave birth in the summerIn five years' time I had five young onesBut there was something missing, there was something wrong.One day my husband came back from townSaid honey, you better sit downThere's been another woman for all this timeShe's my one true love, can't get her from my mindNow I break my back from crack of dawnIt's midnight when I get homeThere never seems to be enough to eatAnd I listen to my children cry themselves to sleep.Though I keep on trying to believe that there's an end to all this painI just keep moving on, I can't stop to think too long, oh no.Though I keep on trying to believe that there's an end to all this painI just look in the mirror and I know I only have myself to blame.I took the safe road, I took the easy roadBut I learned there is no safety thereYou gotta push against the current to get somewhere.
9. Colder
Look how far I've come todayI feel I could go forever this wayMy back is strong, my legs are longMy coat is warm, my shoes not worn.But it grows colder, colder still.It grows cold, it grows cold, it grows colder, colder.I mark my day on the widow's walkI watch the sea, hear the sailors talk;I pined away on my deathbed,Can you blame me for the things I did?You grew colder, colder still.You grew cold, you grew cold, you grew colder (your memory),You grew cold, you grew cold, you grew colder, colder.I broke the trust I had with you;I broke your heart, I wasn't true.I denied myself of pretty things;I lied to myself to go on breathing.I grew colder, colder still;I grew cold, I grew cold, I grew colder, colder still,I grew cold, I grew cold, I grew cold, I grew cold, I grew cold ...
10. Force
10 a.m. and I'm drunk againBitter cognac, sweet reliefI held your mother before she floated awaySweet baby skinBroken window latchYour nail lash, your warm fleshThe only way I'll ever love is by forceI'm asleep in the chasm.The only way I'll ever love is by forceI run from hell through golden aloeEverything moves so slowWhen all your lovers leave you
11. Hillbilly Death Song
Oh, it's good to die when you don't want to live no moreIt's good to die when you don't want to live no moreWhen the happy moments of your life seem like tiny isolated islandsAnd the pieces of your soul are reaching up and choking you like liquid violenceOh, it's good to die when you don't want to live no more(Yee haw!)
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