Traumatic Voyage
Trauma...
Life Is War
Life is war... life is war... war...
life is an endless war to stay alive...
a war which nobody will survive...
life ends always deadly...
and 'till your dying day you live in fear!
Born into a decaying world...
into a blinded, self destroying race!
Born to die... live to work...
work for a corrupting god to survive!
Burn your soul... split your tongue...
fear is the bearer of lies...
scared by life... you betray yourself.
your thoughts turn in senseless circles
around ridiculous things!
Life is war... as long as I breath...
life is war... 'till I'm dead!
Still I'm waiting for the last day of light...
when the human engine finally stands still
and eternal night covers the burned-out
land... the moment when all clocks stop
ticking... and time as mankind has known
does'nt exist anymore... the end will
come... and this reality will break down...
and chaos brought by man's hand...
destroys what's left from this dying
paradise!
Everywhere I can see the coming downfall...
and your eyes are already dead!
The light fades away... and immortal
shadows float through blackend trees...
Winter has come across the desert land...
and cold winds brought the mercyful
silence of oblivion... in those long and
frosty winternights I feel a joyful warmth
in my heart...
Forgotten is all the sorrow of days
in the burning sun...
as the falling snow covers the sleepling
earth...
In solitude .... I am myself... in the void...
I think the unthought... unwritten...
is the future... what will come... has to
come...
Existence,has no definition in mankinds
knowledge!
Dark are the ways I've wandered...
lightless corridors between the dimensions
I've passed...
I've crossed the neverland and saw
where the dead have gone...
And I'm here to tell you there's no hope
for you...
heaven is a rotting place in the last
minds that have a faith...
and hell is this life,.. a lifelong war
against the stream ... to resist the psychic
enslavement by a uncertain safety!
Life is war.,. weak minds are damned to fall...
Life is war.., without fear I await the
coming end...
Death will lift me above myself...
Death is the almighty painkiller!
War...
All what you are living for...
All what your life is made of...
stands before the final downfall!
And still you won't search your soul in
your confused mind... so you are
lost even befors you´re dead!
Nothing makes me wonder anymore...
Nothing can break my infinite will...
Nothing will change my divine mind...
This sick society means nothing to me...
Life is war...
Death is peace!!!
Disembodied
Disembodied, I am...
The flesh of that dead body that once
was mine... lies rotting before my
spiritual eyes... I have returned to my
only real shape...
Disembodied ... my soul is reborn...
Disembodied... into the mental reality...
I've left that touchable...
but transitory reality behind...
It means nothing... only a second of
infinity... a mortal point in the endless
space castigated by the ubiquitous
death...
Humans, you mean nothing...
arrogant, souless race of flesh...
your superficial reality is not real for me...
I was reborn by death... out of the light...
into the everdark... back into the
spirit world... into my eternal reality...
the reality of thoughts and mental
power... here in my unmasqued and
ancient form... I have the wisdom of
aeons....
Disembodied... forever and unhuman
Disembodied... real is only the immortal
Desillusioned
Once ago I've felt somekind of fear...
and as it burns me deep within...
my life seems to be unliveable for
me... and I see that all ways of life in
this sick world... will never lead me to
my final destination...
They are all slaves of the limited
life they've chosen!
Desillusioned...
Matter will always decay to dust...
only the soul that perceives itself will
exist eternal... you never can escape
from yourself... there's no place to
hide from the face inside... and with
poison in your brain... you think you're
alive while your soul slowly dies!
Desillusioned... Desillusioned...
Desiliusioned... solitude is the absolute
freedom... desillusioned... I live only
for myself... I am my god! Leave me
alone... leave me alone... the death you
die will never be mine!
Leave me alone... you will never reach
my higher form of existence!
Crawling maggots all over the wounded
earth... eating each other and celebrate
the downfall... world at it's end...
and none cries a tear for it...
No this was never my race... so,
leave me alone... beyond reality... in
the afterlife... where we will meet again
Where you will be the lost... and I am the
king of my life!
Desillusioned... desillusioned...
solitude is the absolute freedom...
desillusioned... I live only for myself...
I am my devil!
Leave me alone... leave me alone...
the death you die will never be mine...
leave me alone... you will never reach
my higher form of existence!
Flesh is rotting... minds are sleeping...
identity is a mask... all is dead...
all is lost!
This reality is a experience I've tasted
enough... I'm ready for a new state of
consciousness... everyday the wish
get´s stronger... to blow my brain onto
the wall... and watch through dead
eyes... my blood flowing down... down!
Desillusioned... life is an illusion...
only death is real!
And I live only for that one way
transition!
Everyday the wish get´s stronger...
to blow my brain onto the wall...
and watch through dead eyes...
my blood flowing down...
desillusioned... from life...
desillusioned... to death!!!
Liquid Fire
Liquid fire in my veins... divine thoughts
in my head... deeper emotions down
in me... I'm above myself!
Liquid fire burns my mind... illuminates
my consciousness... intensifies my
perception... I am one with the universe!
Liquid fire penetrates my brain...
as a mountain I stand... in the strom
of life... my will is harder as stone!
Liquid fire leads me further...
flesh and blood moves in circles...
only my soul moves forward...
to the end of the universe!
Etherspace
In der unendlichen Weite meines
Geistes... tief unter der Oberflache des
menschlichen Daseins... gibt es einen
Ort... an dem alle Träume... ihren
Anfang finden und ihr Ende nehmen...
Jenseits des bedeutungslosen Lebens
im unreinen Licht... welches mich die
Vergänglichkeit von Schmerz und Pein
lehrte... gebunden durch Mauern aus
Fleisch... wartet meine Seele auf ihre Erlösung...
auf die Dunkelheit...auf den Tod!
In darkness there is no light... but every
light creates shadows... dark corners
exist where ever you may be... and in
each of them lurks another nameless
dread...
the light is transistory as a human
life... immortality lies in the eternal
cosmic darkness!
Mind in itself... astral perfection of
all what's used to be...
Etherspace... the "true" reality!
Black is the sky between the stars...
dark is the earth without the sun...
and when the last flame is extinct...
eternal darkness is all what's left...
all of your artificial lights won't shine
forever...
and even the sun will burn out someday!
Riding as a wolf through the dark
forest... flying as a bat across snowcovered
landscapes... falling as a
crystal from the wintersky... in every
shape my spirit wears...
I am a creature of the unlimited night!
The trees are crying in the cold winterwind...
so many of them are dead and
murdered... and even the rest of them
are weak and dying... by the unyielding
plague that infests the earth!
You´ve slept to long to awake now...
your awakening comes to late...
nothing can save you anymore... you
all will die by your own hands!
Enchanting is the darkness... fascinating
is the night...
all my senses are reaching unknown
dimensions... on the other side of the
light
my mind is in the middle of the natural
balance... in the night when the sky is
open... and the cosmic stream is unleashed...
I drown and will be reborn by
the powers of the universe... illuminated
by obscurity... I can fear the pain of the
earth
Mankind... for your crimes you have to
pay... death to the human race!
Mother earth... kill that what kills you...
death to the human race!!
Etherspace... life under will...
Etherspace... drowned in myself...
With the desire comes the misery...
everyday life gets harder.. and the
strength leaves my body... how old can
it become... before my soul suffocates
in rotting flesh... in a sick and weak
body... that's damned to die slow...
slow death!
As I share the mystic smoke with the
clouds of the nightsky... I appear in me
and be myself...
Only in my head I´m free... in the
etherspace inside...
the exstatic flood of my intangible
thoughts... can never be trapped in any
form of prison!
Etherspace... I´m in myself and outside
of my body...
Etherspace... I'm in myself and outside
of my body...
your time is running out... this planet is
on fire... and it's only a question of time
until you burn with it... ignorant
humans... by destroying nature you
dig your own grave!
As I enjoy the unique experience of
dying with open wounds... I watch my
life essence as it colours the snow red...
in every drop of blood that leaves my
body... exists a uiverse in itself...
and each of them is well-known to me...
micro or macro does´nt make a
difference for me...the cosmos fulfills
everything...everywhere!
I´ve seen the future... and know that I
can handle it... whatever my existence
will bring in coming centuries... it won't
shatter my believe in myself...
you can torture my flesh with your
whole pervert fantasy... you can make
my body bleed to death...
mind in itself... astral perfection of all
what´s used to be...
Etherspace... the "true" reality!
But you will never force my spirit...
into your golden cage of mental dependence...
never I will live on my knees...
when I can die on my feet!
The death of my human'shape... will
not be the end of my traumatic voyage.,.
My journey of wisdom continues...
until the end of the universe!
Versunken im Ich... verloren in meinen
Gedanken... Realität und Zeit sind
bedeutungslos geworden... ich treibe im
unendlichen...
du sagst es wäre wahnsinn in meinen
Augen... doch ich sehe Sphären die du
nicht siehst.., und befinde mich an einem
Ort jenseits deiner wahrnehmung... in
der Finsternis des Ätheraume... wo nur
ich sein kann!
Selfconfession
Ich glaube...
Ich glaube an die Kraft meiner Gedanken
Ich glaube an die Unendlichkeit meines
Geistes
Ich glaube an die Unzerbrechlichkeit
meines Willens
Ich glaube an die Unsterblichkeit meiner
Seele
Ich glaube an mich
ICH BIN GOTT!!!
Everdark
This is reality, how you accept it... and
what you´ve made of it!
Down the mental vortex I drift... in spirals
I´m drifting up!
The hell that you`ve created... and what
it made of you!
Without flesh there's no touchable reality
bodyless... In the void... there's nothing
real!
Everything falls back on itself... time
always moves forward... never backwards
Neither it will stand still... my spirit
is endless... my soul is timeless!
Everyday this body of mine gets older...
never younger... there's no way back to
what's gone... it's gone forever... and the
future disappears while I try to reach it!
In the darkest and longest night of the
fatal saturn-year... I walk through the
ancient forest of my childhood... these
monuments of wood, so much older
than my tired flesh... are whispering my
secret name with the tongue... the
tongue of my everlasting soul!
I raise my eyes to the sky and watch
the hypnotising moon... as it drowns in
a sea of clouds... the guardian of my
sorrow... witness of my pain!
As the unyielding winterwind cuts my
weak flesh without a blade... I sit down
and listen to the tender voice of the
nature...
Here is my home... without a castle...
Here are my roots... my ancient source...
The sanctuary for my tortured mind..
To find peace... and a final place to rest!
I was searching for somekind of a god
since I can remember... since the first
light has blinded my eyes... in all those
years of my quest... at all those strange
and unknown places where I have
sought... in the darkest depth... and
behind the highest light... it was always
myself I have found... alone with me ...
I've felt eternity!
Darkness always heals the wounds of
the victims of light... all angels, lost
their beauty... all heavens have turned
to hell!
Red clouds of poison drifting over a
black sky... above a danse macabre in
a paradise that lies decay!
Darkness always brings the mercyful
sleep... which delivers the mindless
slaves of life... from their languishing
state... all living must die... all thinking
will resignate... in a soceity which consumes
itself in monotony!
In me it's everdark... darker as life could
ever be... dead or alive... my thoughts
will move on... until there's nothing left
to think!!!
Alterlife
As i stand on the top of this beautiful,
tortured world... high above a sea of
clouds in which the earth has drowned...
the frosty winds from the eternal arctic
ice bites my skin... and fills my mind
with impressions from aeons of evolution
I raise my head and look up to the endless
stars... distant worlds... they seem
to be so near... but yet they are unreachable
for me... no gods live up hear...
above the clouds... only the unyielding
majesty of universal nature... and me...
With dry feet I walk over the water...
I sit down in the middle of the lake...
surrounded by the dark silhouetes of
the forests... I fall into a dark and silent
trance... Somewhere... out there...
In the depth of the almighty nature...
far away from the breathtaking
civilisation... I can feel the beat of the
universe in my bleeding heart.. the
source where I once have came from...
and to which I soon will return to...
never to come back!!!
Egosphere
Look into the mirror... what you
see is what you are!
Nothing more in your life.,. as
you can see in your eyes!
Look into the mirror.,.
Your alone with yourself... all the
demons of your life... penetrate
your mind with your eyes!
As I look into the mirror...
I lapse into the black of my eyes...
I drown in the river of my life...
that flows into the abyss
of my soul!
In my Egosphere...
I breath the cosmic energy from
the shimmering stars...
I want to be far away from any human
presence... your humanity is the
deepest abyss of consciousness...
this spiritual corpse of a infirior race...
has no future in anyway!
Is there any meaning in your life...
will it change anything if you're dead?
Everything you created is damned
to rot... nothing here is eternal!
Every faith is is senseless...
when there's nothing to believe in...
religion is a prison for the mind...
and when false gods infect the brain...
there is no place left for a independent soul!
Reality is what you see and what
you feel... and each individium has
it's own perception... words are
nothing more than the ear can hear...
and every ear listens for itself!
Nothing is constant.. nothing is
forseeable...
and eternity is a never ending movement
In my Egosphere... In my Egosphere...
between the ruins in the eternal abyss
of my soul...
I've buried your god and took place on
his throne!
I spit on all those heretical gods outside
here inside... I am the only god!
In my Egosphere...
My destiny awaits me in that what never ends!
Once again I stare into the mirror..
I seek for answers in the black sea of
my eyes...
and I know somewhere in the depth...
is an exit to leave all behind!
Look into the mirror... you can see
it in your eyes... every second life is
fading... and death comes closer...
For my deliverancs...
the truth is undenyable!
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